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well....i jus realized today...........now i know y i am so depressed
its cuz i hav nothing to live for
i mean...yes i love family and friends but...like...no one's evr said..."if u died i'd be nothing" lol i know its kinda weird
i mean....when i said it...i wuz like "dont old people say that?" lol
but its true
its like an author writing a book
its hard to write a book if u dont know wat ur writing about
its hard to live a life if u dont know who or wat ur living for
evrything has become so complicated
for those of u who read this and are in my school...well...i know...its hard to believe i'm like this
some people say i jus write stuff like this on my journal to get attention
some people say that i only write this stuff to be emo like evryone
some people say that i only write this stuff cuz i want to impress people
but i dont.........my journal i guess is interesting..but i jus wish life wuznt so complicated
i mean.......like...ur destiny is all planned out
u change it evry step u go
its like those books where u choose the story i guess
but.......the difference is......ur choices are....life...and....death
i'm so young...and yet....i think i hav so many problems
its getting hard to breath...
its like being trap in a box.......thats how i literally feel like
i do the weirdest things for comfort....but is it worth it?
today.....is the day........i wish and want to live life differently........but once again.......i failed last time i said that.....................i guess they say...try try again...and its like riding a bike....but i dont know how to ride a bike lol