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emo I wish there was someone I could relate to.
Life hurts. I knew today would be horrible.
I didn't want it to be. I tried not to make it horrible.
It just ended. Horribly.
There are times where I need to be depressed or sad because I can't literally smile.
That's how emotionally unstable I am.
My life was thrown into chaos. But in a very bad way.
Yesterday I thought everything was going fine, until today where I noticed it was all an illusion. It was all a trick.
If there was only someone I know would understand and someone who knew me.
I'm so hypocritical. I have a project tomorrow. My topic is hope and how to never give up.
Here I am.
In my position.
Ready to give up.
I can't give up right?
But it's so tempting to.
I don't want to say why I feel like this in public but long story short.
I screwed up my life with three simple words.
I never thought that was possible.
I didn't think the worse would come but I bet it's still coming
I want to quit facebook but I kind of need it to ask people question about school work and etc.
But everytime I go on, there's always something right there.
Something that makes me upset and feel uneasy.
Something that makes me remember unpleasant things.
Something that makes me remember what I've done to myself to feel this way.
I wish I could find hope again because I honestly can not go on like this.
Please, please, please. I pray tomorrow will be better.