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I don't have a good reason to work.
I tried to work and do the projects I really need to do A.S.A.P. but i cant...
I don't have a motivation to...
I want to do well in school. Sure.
Buty why?
I know my parents would get really mad at me if I didn't.
I know that I wouldn't be able to do well in life. Sure.
But what else?
There's stuff that's missing.
I'm surrounded by fantasies and I'm waiting for something exciting.
But I live in reality. Reality is boring in many ways.
I want to do something fun.
Right now.
As a kid.
I want to go out there and explore.
That's why I wanted to be an archaeologist, but then it would take out too much of my life if I had a family.
I'm also a cowered.
Life would be easier if I was smarter, yes.
Do I realy have to live life so boringly without motivation?
I want to keep dreaming, but I want a dream to come true here in reality.
Otherwise, my life is being wasted every moment I live.
What to do...What to do...
Damn it...