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I really honestly don't get this.
I don't know myself.
No one does.
Trust me.
Sure people can predict what I do, how I act.
Who said that's how I felt.
Wow I'm confused.
I don't even know what my favorite kind of music is.
I'm not saying that I'm screwed up or anything.
I'm saying that...there's a lot of things about me I don't know which is practically everything.
I never know how I feel now.
When I'm happy...I don't know why I'm happy.
When I'm mad...I don't know why I'm mad.
When I'm depressed...I don't know why I'm depressed.
When I'm jealous...I don't know why I'm jealous.
I know other people better than myself.
Why is it so hard to understand me?
What do I even like?
What are my talents?
I don't even have much dedication for school anymore.
I'm losing it.
I haven't done homework yet and I have a bunch to do.
I practically quit guitar. (but i'm starting in January)
Well, I was never good.
I do everything alone...For some reason.
I never want people to know what I'm thinking, or what I'm like.
It's like there's a boundary line where there's a certain boundary where you get to know me.
I don't know why I do that.
I just know I do.
Everyone...grew up?
And left me confused?
oh well...I doubt they'd help, no...they'd try...but probably not succeed
I lost my reason think positive practically...