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It is now reaching a point in my life when I can not only say that I am cut off from my peers, but I am also glad because of it. Now before I continue I must simply state that these feelings are not brought on by any recent troubles or events, but are instead ideas I have had for a while.

I think, the best way to put it is that I have out-grown my generation. Whilst those around me are not content enough with threatening acts of violence, the illegal taking of drugs and narcotics, and the potentially suicidal acts of binge drinking and under age sex. I find that I have some how put myself above all that.

I can't help but find myself slightly critcal of my generation, they all seem not to care for the future, and rather than simply facing each task and problem in their way, they prefer to avoid them and create new and more dangerous situations than the previous ones they face.

With the good ol' cop-out arguement, "don't knock it till ya've tried it." I simply have this to say, Why try it when you know it'll kill ya? I went through the same education and near enough the same upbringing as some of these people, but whilst they have ignored the teachings of their elders, I have embraced them.

As each day passes I find they are increasingly repulsive, their every action and very presence a transgretion. They insult what it means to be my age, and indeed my kind. If it where possible to wipe them off the face of the earth, I would. But such thoughts lower myself to their level, and as a person I know I am better than that. To quote a hero; "I could have had the world in days had I pummelled it into submission, but I'm doing this by being in the right." By superman in the alternate universe comic RedSun.

And as a final note, thats something else that bugs me. I can easily spend an evening watching good old fashioned cartoons and learn valuable life lessons from my heroes, yet those of my generation would rather sculk around in dark alleyways and spend nights breaking the law.

Which is something I will always hold dear. The fact that I have broken no law, that as it is, I am more pure in my actions than those of my own age. I follow virtues like truth, duty and justice, whilst those around me abide by the seven sins. I have never fallen to their level, and because of this I am in the right, and will always be in the right. If I was told, "we can do drugs because you must have growing up." I can say in full honesty, No I haven't. Learn from the lessons of your parents, and from the ill advised actions of those around you. I will never make the mistakes others have, and I will always be.

I will always be alone. I am never going to find someone, as I always find myself in situations like this. Whilst those around me go and make mistakes, I will always be the timid one in the corner who is afraid of the consequences if I do.

And quite rightly too. If they are too ignorant to not see the negative repercussions of their actions, then they deserve the full force of their punishment. No mercy, only retribution. No one escapes their past, no one escapes judgement.

Even though I am destined to be eternally alone, I'll damn well do it with the full knowledge that I am a degree better than those who I would be with. I am a cut above the rest, as they say, and because of this I am the only one who will not be punished. I'd blanket my kind in a world of ever-lasting cold, I would deny them the warmth of human comfort, and I would stick the world in endless winter. If I must suffer than humanity will suffer with me.

But then, that is the burden of seeing the consequences of my actions. I would no longer be the 'good guy'. I'd have fallen to their level.

So I must endure their sickening ways, if only so that I can teach others that there is a different way of living. Were they fail, I succeed, and I can have this pride for a companion, followed by righteousness and Justice.

"There is wrong and there is right, there is black and there is white, and there is nothing imbetween." - Mr A. Dc comics.