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When i met Azkul i thought he was an assassin out to get me but i couldnt kill him even then i saved him and healed him.i stayed to make sure he was ok...and thn we were always together.

I would sneek out of the castle in the night to see him so no one would know of him not that i couldnt go out. but until recently i thought only i and jhn knew but dremeir knew and told tony to spy and make sure nothing happened to me.

i didnt know not till now and i wish he hadnt i ddnt need the protection not from him it would of been better if no one knw of him.but i couldnt remember in this life so i talked,and now because of that hes gone.

i always knew it would be my fault but i never thought it would be because of somone else.i did love him but because of his love for me he pushed me away because he wasnt soposed to fall for me he was soposed to kill me but he couldnt he tried to make me mad and told me he didnt love me so would kill him but i didnt i knew the truth.too long we were togther and with john h still cant get though it.

i miss him terribly and it was my fault i was untrue and had no time to wait for him and now hes gone killd himself cause he could never be good enough for me.i couldnt tell my mate or tony that cause i knew they'd all hate me for still loving him from afar like a doll behind glass.but i did i cant lie and hes not coming back he doesnt want to if it wasnt for john i would join him to show how sorry i am that couldnt be who he remembers