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Is it Friday? Oh yes, now I remember. It is because Friday is the day Wayne goes back to work.

Anyway, my friend slept over last night and it was very fun. We watched the most horrible movies though... but there were some good sides to it.

That's not really important. What's important is my boyfriend. He doesn't take what I say seriously. If I ask him for something it'll be brushed off and forgotten. If he asks something of me I will always do it... well, almost always. See, he has me wrapped around his finger and because of how much I love him and don't want to do anything to upset him I'd jump for anything he asks. He's good to me and I love him, but it seems like lately he's rather watch tv then be with me. He was really stressed this whole past month so with my advice he took a week off from work, and you must understand this is very rare because he is a workaholic and almost never, ever misses a day. But I told him he needed it. He had been in horrible shape and getting sick a lot...

He told me that by the end of this week I'd be sick of him, because we'd spend so much time together. Well, we have barely talked and when we have I've just gotten half of him, him being busy changing his site around. So it's not like talking to him. I just sit there and he basically doesn't say anything. There's a couple "I love yous" here and there, but nothing is actually talked about. Ya see, I cannot carry a conversation on my own. I am a horridly boring and paranoid person. So without another person actually trying in it.... our conversation is dead and consists of nothing but mindless s**t.

Ugh, I love him so much, but I don't know what it is that I should do...

On top of all this, my mother seems to actually hate me. I'm not talk all, "Oh wah, wah, my mommy is so mean to me... my mommy is such a b***h!" I mean that she actually hates me. I'm waiting for her to just completely freak and tell me how she wishes she could have just had a normal daughter. Someone that did their homework and joined in sports. Someone that went out on weekends and someone that spent lots of time talking with people... not over the computer. I really think she's going to do something drastic. I'm kind of worries...

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