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My parents are imbeciles. I don't know how much more of their s**t I can take before I come out and say horrible things. They continue on this whole Nelson issue. Too old, too experienced, too <insert complete and utter bullshit here>, et cetera. I'm ready to punch one of them in the face. I mean, that's what my brother did and they give him everything he wants! biggrin

Gagghhhhnnnng... I can taste the bile in my mouth. I want to spit it in her eyes. I really wished she didn't 'care' about me so much. I'm not their niave little girl. I've probably planned more beautiful, degrading things then they could even imagine.

...but I feel bad for Nelson. I really like him... I mean, I really, really like him(yeh, that makes me sounds even more dumb). I'm told he likes me a lot too, but someone like him has many different choices. Well, he currently still has a girlfriend. They seem to care about each other quite a bit and I'm ******** that up as it is, with out my parent issues. Nelson is trying to get closer to me and I'm worried because my parents really don't want me to have anything to do with him. I feel so bad... He's so nice. I care about him and I don't want to put him through this. He can easily find someone more 'availible' or, well, stay with his current girlfriend. To say the truth, I don't even know if he wants me as a girlfriend. I think I'm probably too eager and jumping the gun; getting too attached, much too soon. I guess this is all the reason I don't want him to go through this s**t why my parents. I'm not worth it. I'm really not.

...they don't want me to see him, but I need to give him back all his CDs. Ugh, I think I'm going to be a douche and do my best to hold onto his shirt.

...I him more than I can explain witht he word 'like'. Unnngh, please, I don't know what to do...

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