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Pain,
I feel it burning ever so great,
It never shows on the outside because I never left it,
It burns hotter then hell,
Yet makes me feel as cold as ice,
Laughter is my gettest mask,
A smile is my main mascurade,
Yet I do scream out without a singal to listen,
I don't cry out to those whom it does coneren,
I feel as though i should destory something,
Yet in all that I don't have the energy,
So I sit here inside myself,
And I laugh watching myself be torchured.
Life has gotten to me I feel mysefl closing up once again. This time I fear more then ever that the door that where opened not to long ago will close again. I fear most that it shall be different this time for I feel the doors having more looks and great door. It will be a closing that I feel I may almost never recover from. And so I shall sit and watch my emotions fade away so that no one but I shall see them. I shall never show anything good again. My affection will fail and never again appear, my friendships will becomed closed off and they will never truely know how or what I feel. And so I fear worst of all that smiles and laughter with be a mask to hatred and absolute pain. And soon the door that had those emotions will break open and so lease the demon apoun those who are so imporstant and close to me. And so my tiger shall rewaken into the greatest chaos.
 Erogassa · Fri Oct 15, 2004 @ 10:58pm · 5 Comments |
