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A passionate warmth, as of fire. my only love. For only you does this flame in my heart burn so brightly.



Forever lost within the darkness of my soul..why is it that there is not one bit of light within me?......Other try to find such wihtin me....but.....truth be....there is none........



Why must I be so alone?....why cann't I find someone to take my pain away?.....someone to make me happy?.....can I ever be happy?.....can I ever love?.....





Why must one such as I be so cursed?...TO never know the joys of love......Not to ""Feel"" the touch of a lovers wamr embrace.......TO know that I am truely loved......Forever to wounder and remain in enternal darkness.....



A warm embrace of a lovers kiss...THe gentle warmth there embrace.....THe kindness they show only to you.....Knowing that one of such is yours and yours alone...and that none other can have them....could this be love?........could this happen to me?......



A life of endless nothingness.....Love and yet no love....Why must some people be made to live?....There is many things and nothings to live for.....One that lives for the soul reason to find love and yet never to have it....how can this be?.....A life of endless pain and sarrow....enternal pain......a life of endless nothingness.....can that be?.....how can this be?....



Forever darkness....made to never to see the light. How can one be made to live such?...Is it fair? How can it be fair?....



The world offers amny ways to be free.....but what if you have a chance to be free but then find out you are not free?...That you must stay where you die inside more untill you free in another seance......Would you do everything to live or would you die?....



I wounder and think for many hours on end of how my life would be if I was not in so much pain.....I can never make love work.....I can never be in a relationship...It seems all I do is hurt the ones I love and care for......Should I do what I want to do?.....Should I set myself free from this damned world?....Or should I still live in this great and seemingly eternal pain....Must my heart go threw so much pain that I long for my death?...Must these damn things called ""emotions"" drive me back from my true happiness? Why............why must I live as such?..........



One that wishes for love and there death how is it that they will live even after they lost all hope for love? Living in darkness evermore, how must they live? If they are forced to live should they forget of others and die?...Or must they live in eternal pain and sarrow?



How is it that one that longs for love and yet has a dark heart can never have love? Searching for one to take there apin away they can never find it. No one ever wishes to help one that wants love but pushes it aside. They want love to heal there darkend soul but....it never happends....THen there death comes and they are foronce in there life....happy......for there pain is gone.....asn so are they......



WHy?....why must I be so alone?......why must things happen as they do?.....why when I am allmost content things must go wrong?.....There was one time in all life I was happy......and now it is gone forever.....For now my heart is to dark to ever let that happen again.........>A life of bitter emptiness is how I live......and shall remain.....I had long thought love would warm my drakend cold heart........But I know I am wrong.......and was such a fool for thinking such.......I was ment to be alone for all time......and so it shall be.....and remain.......



Like the sea at nightfall. You may never know what beauty lies deep within me. You must know me befor you know the truths of my soul.



A soul like the wind. Care free and gentle. Soothing and soft. Kind and sometimes comferting like a warm embrace.



Filled with over whelming bliss for one so dear. And the happiness it brings just to be by there side.



THe painfull sarrow one goes threw after being lost be one so dear to them. How is it that they yet can strive threw the pain?....



Living an angelic life,full of happiness and of joy. A blissful life filled with the joys that you share with antoher. How grand it must be.



The great joys of the rain reflect that of my soul. It waters the beautiful flowers. And sooths others and brings some together.





All lame as ******** I know...and so I can not spell.......