He's getting on my nerves! First he gets me to believe he actually likes me, next thing I know, he doesn't like me. Now he tells me he loves me? He's the one who broke up with me! ReMeMbEr?! Ugh! He is so confusing at times. I wish he could just tell me how he feels and not just sit back and watch me suffer. It's like he actually LIKES to watch me text him and call him all the time and get frusterated when he doesen't text or call back. It hurts me enough that he broke up with me within a few days of going out, I actually believed he liked me. Which, I think he still does, but I'm not so sure. Gosh! It's not fair. I really love him, and I have for two years. I was the happiest girl in the world when I got that letter from him. Now whenever I get near him it's like: "Please see me. I love you, can't you see it? You can look into my eyes and just see that I have always loved you from the first time I met you." I wish he could see it. Just yesterday I was playing around with him (Stealing his backpack and hiding it) and when he got near me to get it back, My heart was thumping SO LOUDLY that I could hear it in my ears. I stared at him with wide eyes almost unconsiously. I was close to giving him back his backpack when Diana took it from me saying "Are you nuts?! We JUST got it and you want to give it back? You're growing soft on me... Or are you still sprung?" I blushed so red it looked like I drew on my cheeks with a red marker. He gave kind of a laugh and tried to take it from Diana as she ran. I grabbed the strap and told Diana to let go, she tried swinging it to make me let go but all that happend was Gregory grabbed the other strap and she made me bump into him. I tried grabbing the strap from the ground so Diana wouldn't run off with it, but I ended up grabbing Gregory's hand by accident. Next thing I know, I'm running away with my hands in my face trying to cover my cheeks. I was so emberassed. I think Diana gave him the backpack and he ran after me but stopped because I was running toward the Girl's room. (Which is down the hall from where my next class was. The Computer Lab.) ANYWAYS. I really wish he could just tell me what he thinks and follow his heart. He always worries about what his friends will say. When he asked me out, his friends weren't so sure if they heard rumors correctly. Later when they seen us hanging out more, and more smiles between us, they knew it was true, and they started making fun of him. His friends laughed at him when I came around him and his friends. I guess he couldn't take living by following his heart, but instead following his friend's opinion. If I were prettier, if I weren't white, if I weren't so weird sometimes, if I weren't me.. His friends would approve. But, they don't like any of these things. But I guess, since I'm moving, I have to deal with it and find a new boyfriend in my new school or around m new area. But I'm afraid that my love is too deep for Gregory and that I will never stop loving him. Even if we both move on and grow up. I shall never forget Gregory. There's something so differen't about him than the other guys I've gone out with. I can't quite put my finger on it, but there's just... Something.Well, I must be off. I have a limit of time to spend here and I don't want to waste it babbling on about Gregory. It's not like anyone will ACTUALLY read this anyways. So farewell for now.
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