~Sigh~
I don't know what my problem is. My feelings are changing so often, and I keep getting this bad feeling. Like, bad as in, I'm gonna die. I was looking at my previous boyfriend's journals and profiles,. They've moved on and fell in love all over again. I feel happy they're with someone new and over me, but I can't help but feel sad. I can't get the words out of my head: "I can't believe I did this to that person. I broke up with them andmade them cry. I was so dumb, but I let them go because. . . ?" and that's the worst feeling. I broke up with MANY MANY guys. Only two broke up with me. Gregory and James. I liked them. Fine guys. Fine fine. Whoo. Ehem. Anyway. I just don't know. Gregory moved to Washington and I haven't seen James since the end of 6th grade. And I'm in Eighth Grade now. But, boyfriends and exs are the only thing. I feel so down. I'm moving away for the 100000th time in my life. I want to put my foot down and nail it there. [[Ouch.]] I don't want to move. I love this place. I really don't care how bad Crips Town is. I like it. All the bad boys are liking me. I lost my glasses [[we all know now]] and my zits went away, so I don't look so geeky/quorky. And there's gonna be so many preps and stuff there criticizing me when I move. I love all my classes and I have most of them with all my close friends. High School Musical 2 is coming on my friend's birthday and I won't have cable anyway. HSM is the most awsome of awsome movies. Well, third on MY list. But, still. I want things to be a little less pressurable. I cry at night because I don't want to go. Some kids complain about living somewhere and going to the same school all their life, and that makes me want to scream in their faces to shut up and appreciate it. They have no idea what it's like to have divorced parents, tramatized childhood, and having to be moved around every other year. My parents switch me back and forth without any say from us. We switch schools and we lose more friends every time. And then I end up crying. I don't want to be as used to it as I am. I only have four years until I'm all grown up and going to college and everything. I want to stay here for 6 years, not move and stay for four years.
Well, I doubt if anyone is reading. Thanks if you are. Leave comments please?
DON'T FORGET: My last entry had a song in it. Comment that entry.
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