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Emotional Innocency
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Posted: Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 12:45am

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	So Depressed Today Me and Evelyn got in a fight. I didn't think it would last as long as it has. Usually we would get mad, then we would just say sorry and everything would be Ok. But this time she took it TOO far. So you know I like Beto and he's nice to me and all that, but her stepsister is his ex. So she don't like me, but Evelyn told me that she wouldn't hate me because I like Beto and Beto likes me. But last night or aka early thismorning her stepsister texted me saying I was an ugly b***h and she don't know why Beto even likes me cuz I'm so boring and all that. It made me really mad but I didn't say anything for a while. A few minutes later she said "Why aren't you texting back you scared?" so I texted back this: "No, I'm not scared of you. I have no reason to be. I was testing Evelyn to see if she was really my best friend. But since she didn't stop you from calling me names and talking bad about me, she was never a true friend. A true friend would stick up for them no matter if they're in the middle of the biggest "war" of their lives. She didn't do anything, so we must not be true friends..." [[It took about 2 or 3 texts to fit it all in.]] I don't remember what she said after that, but I know that if she really WAS my best friend she would have stuck up for me and she wouldn't have let her sister talk to me like that. Now it's my Gaia anniversary and I wanted to throw a party, but I slept most of the day to take off some of the depression of losing a close friend. So it's kinda too late. I want to go back to sleep but my eyes are so awake because I wanted to cry myself to sleep. [[Don't ask why that happends. It just happends to me, when I cry myself to sleep I sleep really late and I can't go back to sleep for a really long time. Sometimes it even takes a couple days.]] I know I have lots of close friends, but she's the only one I really talk to. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have been with Gregory. If it wasn't for her, I probably wouldn't be alive today. If it wasn't for her, I probably wouldn't have got Gregory's number. If it wasn't for her, I probably would have never met Beto or Jared. If it wasn't for her, I probably would have never talked to half the people I do today. If it wasn't for her, I would have gotten in tons of fights. If it wasn't for her I would end up the best friend of a lesbian. Dude, if it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have known what the word "cute guy" meant. [[Besides Gregory.]] Yup. I guess that's what a best friend is. But I lost all meaning to it. And now I'm left with "Best friends turned to enemies." Comment me and I'll comment back. You can always come back to conversation. See ya.

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You're All I Need.
You're My Everything.
Everything.
[[1 Corinthians 13:4]]
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CJ_1566
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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 01:06am

I think you should write a poem. Or maybe a song. That's what I would do. In fact, I just wrote one in my own journal. You can use it if you want, But it would be better if the poem came from your heart. Any true friend couldn't deny something like that. wink

Emotional Innocency
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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 01:08am

Thank you so much!

CJ_1566
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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 01:11am

No problem, It's always a pleasure to help those in need.

Emotional Innocency
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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 01:13am

</3...A h3aRt Is N0t A pLaY ThInG, a H3aRt Is NoT a T0y..

BuT iiF yU wAnT iiT bR0kEn Th3n GiiVe It T0 a BoY...</3

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 01:40am

Don't blame your friend for her sisters actions. It's just jealousy and your friend doesn't control her sisters actions nor do you. Therefore if you like this guy and he likes you then there's no big problem is there? Just tell your friend you over reacted without thinking and maybe you two can mend the friendship? Btw have you ever actually spoken to her after this little outburst? Perhaps she did try to tell her sister to stop or something of that fashion.
If you think about it there's not much your friend could of done in this case because this is between you and her sister. If you get involved with your friends sisters ex and shes not over him yet you either wait until she is(if you think its worth it. Thats totally up to you) or you go for it and put up with this. This is very common because females tend to get overly jealous, especially over exs >.> I would know first hand. However, I didn't lose a friend in the process. So I believe you two could simply talk it out.
If you feel the need to reply, its best if left in a comment or message because that's the only way I'll reply to it.
Have nice day.

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 01:43am

oh also I believe you'll be fine either way it goes.
Take care of yourself.
Read a book, that should be a good outlet and stress reliever.

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 01:54am

I did talk to her. After the text I sent my friend was texting me, two. Also before. She was calling me b***h and all kinda of things. She let her sister text me. She does it all the time when she's with someone. I would never want to lost a friend over something like this, but I know Evelyn more than anyone. She even said it herself. Evelyn told her sister and I quote "Shelbi is just some ugly white b***h that thinks she's all that." Beto told me. And I don't want to be with him because I do want to wait until her sister is over him. But I don't see her problem. They broke up so long ago and he liked me first. I denied him so many times just because of her sister and it makes me mad because she was so ungreatful of it. I didn't accept his invitation to be his girlfriend, I listened to my friend agree to calling me "Ugly white b***h", and now I have to put up with this. Thanks for the advise. Another helpful and long one. I really apreciate it.

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 02:22am

... A ese nene lo tengo trikiao ...

... Con mis caderas lo tengo amansao wind! ...

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 03:37am

I know what you are goign through. Me and my friend had a huge fight and she didn't want to talk to me for like ever. For a while I avioded her, mosty because I was afraid that she would say more things about me. She had already started rumors. When you cool down just staight out tell her how sorry you are and want to be friend again. If she declines your apolige, maybe she isn't your best friend. ALso, proofing you care for her helps too.

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 07:10am

That's good advice 2.
But Idk if we would ever be friends again.

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 02:09pm

Shebli, you got lots of others friends right? if she treats you like that she was never a good friend. remember when me haylie and cassie got in a fight? we still talk a little but not much. Who knows, knowing you, being awesomely cool, you'll find a much better friend out there! ^.^

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 03:56pm

Wow. An unexpected post from Alexis. Lol. I know, but she was a special friend I held dear for a while. It hurts me to lose such a close friend. And I do, I have lots of friends. Idk why but Evelyn was just closer to me than any of my friends around here. She was my first friend to come to my house on no special occasion. And the first friend to spend the night. AND the first friend to help me get into a relationship with my dream guy, Gregory.

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 04:08pm

Well your friend's sister and this guy aren't going out anymore.... then she shouldnt be acting this way towards you! She just needs to move on because it sure seems like thie guy beto has if he likes you. So don't worry about what she has to say about it... And I agree with the statement made in another comment that your best friend cant control her sisters actions... Youc ant sit here and blame her for something her sister did...

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Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 04:19pm

Thanks for the advice.

[[No offence but if I have to say this one more time I'm going to scream.]]

I am not blaming her for her sisters actions. I've told her too many times, best friends stick up for eachother no matter if they're in they're biggest war of their lives. She agreed with me! But she broke off that little detail and LET her sister talk to me that way. I talked to her after it and she said she let her talk to me. She read all the texts. So I'm not blaming her for her sisters actions.

Okay, now that that's done with. You're absolutely right. Beto does like me and I like him. He got over her so she needs to get over him if we ever get enough courage to go out. =3 Great advice. =]

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