I hate to say that my time has almost come. It has come to the point in my life where I'm giving up. Giving up on love, friends, school... life altogether, really.
I'm dropping out, with the help of my parents of course. (Not yet 18.)
And as soon as I do turn 18, it's off to the Marines for me. Yupp. This girl wasn't meant to stay in one place for too long. I need to move around. I need to get away from the people I care about most (These people have shown me how much I'm really worth: Nothing what so ever.) So I'm getting away from them. Showing to myself that friendships are nothing but temporary and misguided opinions of what we thought "friends" were.
So now I think I should let you know...
I'm back to my old ways. Yup. I'm not as bad.. but believe me. I'm getting there. I'm working up the courage to take that one last step to make my life complete. And no. I'm not talking about suicide. That's for weak people. And by no means... am I still weak. Weak at heart? Yes. In my mind? No.
I've learned to control my feelings towards some and leave an ever lasting impression without saying a single word. Others, who mean so much to me, are simply pushing me aside. Those were the ones I considered the people I love, are now, just regular people. Only because they treat me the exact same way. I''m just there to them and really, I'm tired of it. I wish people learned that it wasn't all about how many friends you have, but the ones that really care about you and show you they care- are the ones you REALLY want. I was one of the people who loved to care. Now.. I just don't. I don't think I can.
...
But... as I was saying before I went into my little rant: I'm done with this s**t.
There's too much drama with these people I call "friends". I just can't deal with them anymore. It's hard to when all you hear are people fighting, being emo, trying to commit suicide- and failing I might add.
But if I tell you "TELL ME IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG CAUSE I WON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS IF YOU'RE JUST SITTING THERE," you should seriously think about talking to me. But whatever. That's just me.
I don't know what to say to you anymore. I know you wanna leave. So leave. You'll never find a friend like me. You won't. I'm selfless and I can honestly say- you won't find me again unless you're willing to put your words into actions. So other than that... Prove me wrong.
I'm dropping out, with the help of my parents of course. (Not yet 18.)
And as soon as I do turn 18, it's off to the Marines for me. Yupp. This girl wasn't meant to stay in one place for too long. I need to move around. I need to get away from the people I care about most (These people have shown me how much I'm really worth: Nothing what so ever.) So I'm getting away from them. Showing to myself that friendships are nothing but temporary and misguided opinions of what we thought "friends" were.
So now I think I should let you know...
I'm back to my old ways. Yup. I'm not as bad.. but believe me. I'm getting there. I'm working up the courage to take that one last step to make my life complete. And no. I'm not talking about suicide. That's for weak people. And by no means... am I still weak. Weak at heart? Yes. In my mind? No.
I've learned to control my feelings towards some and leave an ever lasting impression without saying a single word. Others, who mean so much to me, are simply pushing me aside. Those were the ones I considered the people I love, are now, just regular people. Only because they treat me the exact same way. I''m just there to them and really, I'm tired of it. I wish people learned that it wasn't all about how many friends you have, but the ones that really care about you and show you they care- are the ones you REALLY want. I was one of the people who loved to care. Now.. I just don't. I don't think I can.
...
But... as I was saying before I went into my little rant: I'm done with this s**t.
There's too much drama with these people I call "friends". I just can't deal with them anymore. It's hard to when all you hear are people fighting, being emo, trying to commit suicide- and failing I might add.
But if I tell you "TELL ME IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG CAUSE I WON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS IF YOU'RE JUST SITTING THERE," you should seriously think about talking to me. But whatever. That's just me.
I don't know what to say to you anymore. I know you wanna leave. So leave. You'll never find a friend like me. You won't. I'm selfless and I can honestly say- you won't find me again unless you're willing to put your words into actions. So other than that... Prove me wrong.
