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A few months back(I don't even know how many, really) I entered a breedables/changing pets concept contest. That is, you come up with an idea for a pet, and if your idea is the best, then you get that pet. Well, there were sub-contests, and I only participated in two out of four, both roleplays, and neither of them got very far through no fault of my own. I was supposed to post in the main thread, meet people, make friends, but I find it hard to integrate with an already set-p community. so I stopped trying after the first few times.

Because of these thing, I knew from the beginning that I wasn't very likely to win. However, just the facts that there were factors that weren't under my control and the contest took so much time and effort from me makes me a little sad and disappointed. Is that unreasonable? Certainly I'm happy for the winners. I don't know them, but they probably wanted this more than I did. But I didn't win, I hardly got to roleplay, and I didn't get any friends or even aqcuaintences out of this whole ordeal. Two out of three of those things are my fault, I know, but it doesn't make me not regret that I didn't seem to get anything out of this contest than some sadness and bitterness.

Well, maybe I got a drive to do better, next time.