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“That stupid jerk! I hate him! I really hate him! I hope he rots in the fiery pits of hell!” I screamed out loud, yet, when I say it, somehow I can’t bring the words to sound like I truly believe that. “Who does he think he is!?” my heart sunk-Why, I have yet to discover-but I can clam it all I want, scream it up and down the halls like a madwoman, but I could never in my life bring myself to truly hate Kearu. Hate like I can hate the Roukan, hate like I hate the rest of the entire human race with him as the exception.
When I look at Kearu, his eyes, his mouth, and even his soul, all I can want to do is wrap myself up inside of him-no matter how creepy it sounded.
“no…” I whispered to myself as I made my way to my bedroom, “I can’t love any human, nor and body from here…there is nobody out there for me, not like that.” I guess I’ll be stuck with Kish for the rest of my life. Even though I did like him…he isn’t right for me, we could be together for one minute, and he’d be off chasing another skirt! I don’t think I-or he-could deal with it. I’d probably kill them both, him and the stupid girl he’s got after.
“and besides…” I grumbled to my self, “humans could never love, not truly love like my kind.” And it was true, all they do is lie and cheat on each other, every time that I had seen couples, it was usually during a fight, (sometimes about the other lying)or a guy that I had seen with a girl not 10 minutes ago, was flirting and hitting on another. Never did I want to deal with one of them, so therefore, I cannot be wit Kearu! I tried to steer my mind away from the thought of actually being with Kearu, or at least wanting to be with him.
As I made my way to my room(from the wrong side of the house, instead of taking the stairs that bring me directly to the hall way I need, I took the long way. So now I have to go past Kearu’s room.) I thought about turning around to go the other way, but stopped myself when I thought about it. There is no way he could have been in his room, he was just downstairs. I shuddered at the memory of him and Jessica in the bathroom, and mentally cursed him again. stupid, stupid, STUPID! This time I was referring to myself.
When I was in the same hallway as Kearu’s room, I froze. I had the I’ll feeling that somebody was in his room. Who in their right mind going into Kearu’s room was either asking to die or asking to be slaughtered. I laughed at the thought, but then abruptly stopped in mid giggle-I didn’t want to think that was funny, that might mean I like him in some form or another.
“That’s it!” I stomped and started to walk again, if Kearu wasn’t aware of somebody in his room, he must be really busy. And if he was really busy with Jessica, then he deserved to get raided by some idiot.
“humph!” I started to stomp down the hall and I was almost passed his room, but somebody grabbed my arm, and pulled me in with such strength I gasped. Shocked, I heard the door slam shut behind me, it was so fast that I didn’t get a chance to see who it was until I turned around, wide eyed and mouth slightly opened.
“who the- what-”
It was Kearu, he was smiling at me. But this smile sent a icy chill down my spin, it was that one smile that told me he was up to absolutely no good, and if I was in the room with him when he got this face, it wasn’t just a child’s game he was up to. But I was not in the mood for this, not now, not ever. I was nobody’s sloppy seconds. I slapped him in his face real hard to knock that stupid smile off.
“you stupid idiot! Who do you think you are!? I’m not your mistress or something!!! Don’t come to me after your finished with Jessica to get some more!” I stood in front of him with my arms crossed over my chest and death in my cold green eyes.
When he got over the surprise of my sudden outburst, he turned to look at my with burning honey eyes. “What. Did. You. Just. say…?” he looked at me like I had emotionally injured him.
“You heard me! I saw you and Jessica in the stupid downstairs-” then I paused in mid sentence. “wait…your…in your own…room…” I sounded totally insane, but how was he here? I just saw hi not 5 minutes ago in the foyer, he couldn’t have beat me to his room, it’s not like I wouldn’t have seen him anyway, and unless he can make himself invisible or something, there is no way he passed me with out my knowing. the other way to his room took longer, so either way, it was impossible!
He sighed. “yes I’m in my own room, now, can we back up…?” he looked irritated, as if he should be angry.
“You know damn well what I’m talking about! I saw you with Jessica in that bathroom! Why and how-” he cut me off in mid sentence.
“what in all hell would I be doing in a bathroom with Jessica!?” I liked the way he spat her name out like it was a deadly decease, but I had to remember not to get sucked into his charm, and his accent was killing that for me. “have you gone utterly mad? Jen‘ai aucune idée de ce que vous parlez, mademoiselle!” And then he crossed his arms over his chest and looked away from my face.
I tore the whip off of my hip and cracked it open. Kearu smiled masochistically and proceeded to talk, but his voice was not angry, but smooth and sexy. “mmm, what’s the whip for my dear? I hope you don’t plan on whipping me with it, but just incase you are, you might want to chain me to the bed, just to complete the mood, hm?” he gave a sickening smile and a stupid wink, I liked it, so it made me even madder. So great, he a total masochist, and I was just finding this out.
“ugh! Don’t try to pull that on me! You really must think I’m stupid or something!” And I lifted the whip in anger, ready to lash it out on him, but before I could even get my brain to register what he was doing, he had my wrists pinned up against his wall. The whip fell on the floor making a soft thud sound. His face was two inches away from my face, I could taste his cool breath in my open mouth, feel it brushing on my nose and on my cheeks. I snapped my stupid open mouth shut, my teeth making a snapping sound as I did so. Man, I had to be the biggest pushover in history!
“now…” he said just above a whisper, his breath even colder than two seconds ago. “what is it that you are accusing me of? I think I would like to know what I will be slaughtered for, unless you tend to do this when your showing your love…?” he half smiled at that last comment.
“oh, yeah, right. I’m no masochist like you-and you know exactly what I’m talking about when I say-” and again, he cut me off, but this time, he had said nothing. I felt his cold lips on mine and that was enough to shut me up-even on this level of anger, and I hated it so much.
I wanted to do so many things at that moment, some he would have liked, but then there were the other ones that he deserved. Like a good punch in the face, or maybe my steel toed boots to his- I thought to myself, but then it got harder to think normal thoughts. He kissed me hard and long, but his lips didn’t crush mine. I think I almost started to breath too hard, but I couldn’t slow it down, I wanted to tell him that this needed to stop, to tell him that this is completely insane and unnecessary, but I couldn’t think the words enough to actually say them. This could very easily get us both killed!
When his cool hand loosened their grip on my wrists, I thought he was going to let me go. But they only slid slowly down my arm, sending little chills up and down my arms and spine, every second he moved. His hands moved down my arms and passed my ribs, and paused at my waist. Now I was sure that I was hyperventilating, despite the fact that I was trying to stop this.
For a brief second his lips released mine, so I made an attempt to speak. “k-Kearu, we shouldn’t be-” too late, his lips found mine again and I couldn’t pull away. This is insane!!! I screamed at myself over and over in my brainless head. His hands found their way around to the small of my back and started to untie my corset. Then I guess that snapped me out of it because I opened my mouth to object. Apparently he got the wrong idea, because instead of letting me get a word in, he silenced me by shoving his tongue in my mouth. I couldn’t help it, I completely gave in and responded to this, almost forgetting what I saw in the bathroom.
Almost, but I didn’t.
And as if by some sort of miracle, a knock came to the door, interrupting the ludicrous. Kearu made some sort of growl in the back of his throat, and we took one last sip of the drug that had possessed us-or rather it was I who was possessed for letting it slide.
“ Tenez une minute !” he called loudly(or angrily) to the door. “Ceci a eu mieux pour être important !” I couldn’t understand what it was he said. “il est important, mon fils” Somebody called from the other side of the door, Kearu quickly grabbed me gently, lifting me up like I was a doll and carried me to his gigantic, walk-in closet. After he opened the door, he whispered in my ear.
“je veux que vous restiez dedans ici, et ne me déplace pas.” when I looked at him like he was a total idiot, he paused and slightly shook his head. “I mean…I want you to stay here, don’t move. My father is at the door, and I don’t think he’d appreciate it if I was in here with you, the closed door doesn’t help much either.” he kissed me on my cheek and closed the door on me. Wow, are we 9 years old or something? I thought sourly to myself.
I couldn’t believe I just did what I did. What is wrong with me!? I must need some kind of mental help! “Alright! Next time, I wont be so soft!” I mumbled to myself in the dark closet that could be made into a whole other room if anybody wanted.
I backed up all the way into the back of the closet so I could have a chance to hide incase his father decided to come and look for something in the closet. But when I backed up, I hit the wall with my tail--my tail! I did a double take and felt the wall just to make sure I wasn’t just mistaken something else. Nope, the wall was flat, I turned around and looked behind me, and there it was…I swallowed hard and reached up to feel the top of my head. no doubt about it, I accidentally changed into my demi-wolf form probably when Kearu started his idiotic behavior. If my kind has a sudden emotional swing, we automatically shift.
It is said to be a defense that we’re born with to protect us so if we are put in some kind of sudden battle, we wouldn’t need to worry about being killed if we don’t have time to shift forms. And that was defiantly a battle that I have indeed lost.
I almost chocked when I realized that Kearu must have seen me in this form, yet he didn’t show it in his expressions. If I wouldn’t have found this out myself, I would have never knew he found out. But I had little hope, maybe he didn’t look surprised because he didn’t know, maybe he was in such a rush that he didn’t even notice that I looked completely different! It was far fetched considering my hair color had changed from black to silver, and my eyes changed dramatically going from green to red. That alone was enough, but there is the ears, and the claws, and the tail…
I wanted to vomit, or to die, which ever came easiest. When the Roukan finds out, that’s it, I’m through! There is no way they’d tolerate this. Even if I told them what really happened, that might just make every thing worse, I’d have to let them know what I was doing with a HUMAN.
I started to hear voices, some things were in French, but most of it was in English, so I could hear. I decided his father was going to come inside, he would catch me inside already--matter where I was, and I moved to the front of the closet so I could listen.
“est-ce que ceci quelque chose que je ne peux pas aider, pourquoi vous est me disent à ce sujet?” Kearu’s silken voice was troubled, but he didn’t seem too roused about what ever it was they were talking about.
“But you two are to get married, and unless you want to be complete strangers, I suggest you start doing something about this.” His father’s voice made me angry, I knew they must have been talking about Jessica. Why is Kearu going this far just to hide the fact that he wants her…? And how did he beat me to his room? Did he take some kind of secret route that I didn’t know about? The suspense was eating at me, I have to know why he detests announcing his feelings for the stupid girl. Is this all some kind of conspiracy, and his father’s in on it, and all of this is just to trick me? Why!?
I was getting more and more irritated as I stood there listening to the muffled conversation.
“I couldn’t care less father, If I have no intention on marrying that wench.”
“you will have absolutely no choice, and I want to see you two together more often than you are, is that clear…?” then I heard the couch in his room make a slight creaking noise, probably from his father getting up.
“Father, we aren’t in India! You cannot force me to marry that stupid woman!”
“…Kearu…?”
“what?” Kearu spat out the word.
“are we alone in here…?” he sounded like he knew the truth, but wanted to catch Kearu in a lie.
“Father, what do you mean? You know I allow nobody into my room…”
Then, I remembered my whip, I had dropped it when Kearu attacked me with the power of his special abilities of force! The blood in my face drained out when I realized his father must have seen it and was asking without pointing it out directly.
I silently prayed to my god that Kearu caught on and was already thinking up an explanation to give to him so that he doesn’t suspect that I was in here. He would, with out a doubt, go and report it and it would eventually get around to the Roukan.
“I don’t know…” His father began. “I just have a small feeling that you were not alone in here when I knocked, and it took you a while to get to the door, that was unlike you so I wondered…”
“well, you now know that you were mistaken, so if you don’t mind…” Kearu sounded like he really meant it, if I didn’t know better, I’d think he was really serious.