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Can somebody help me?
I have been lost and was not found...
Nobody heard me, not a sound...
I wish that somebody could find me,
the one who wants to get out...
I wish i could leave here,
I wish i could shout.
Oh please somebody find me,
to lead me out of this place...
Something lead me here,
and left me without a trace...
I can't take it,
I feel weak and pain all over..
if only i wasn't here,
all messed up and lost forever...
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La - di - da....loll. i'm bored. I can't take it no more. P: it's harsh being a teenager, wanting to explore many areas, and not having the right motivation or mind to actually take it seriously and work as hard as you can for it...cuz....i'm lazy..haha. and and, i have no way of getting there [as in my mind]. but i'm taking small steps, which i feel is helping me only a little bit. =[ my dream: to skateboard and breakdance ...that's all i want. haha. oh, and that long hair P:
cuz it takes a lot of practice, but I have nobody here to help me with this. and if I find somebody, why would they help me? i mean, look at me. ={
bah....whatever...meh
nothing to do, so i'm cleaning the whole flippin house from top to bottom. took me like 3 hours to get like a lil wall section like 75% done....damn.....haha. hella papers and old s**t that I had to throw away. I was in the um....family rooom? iono what it's called. loll. it's the one by the kitchen, not the dining room. lol.
for now, i'm just relaxing. stayed up to like 1am this morning..haven't done that in a long time. got up around noon....felt like crap..read like a few things ..until cousin called for help with stupid credit card...anyway...yeah, so i'm here after reading Jonny Ngo's xanga.. [which i used to do all the time when i was uberly bored}} to catch up.haha
um...um....um.......yeah, now i look for anime pictures and obsess with items that i don't have {i.e. iPod, PSP, digital camera, clothes, stuff} that are online...haha. >,> stuff in manga/anime books are so unique, i wish somebody could make a brand like that and actually create these masterpieces..lol. bah.. P: maybe in the future....tee hee *twinkle in eye*
oh yeah, my dad is jobless still so pray for him. lol. cuz mom needs help with childsupport ...and my cell is dead cuz he pays for it..lol.. >,> not that i need a metro pcs...haha. i could always have mom's cell during uh....school time cuz she doesn't use it {she has teh Cingular} so blah. cuz i won't do much during school. I'll act like a blob, and if Cheryl actuallly PASSES her driving test..then i might be able to get a lil lean muscle.

Quitting track..shouldn't have done it, but it's making me question if i should join Cross Country again. I think I should, I BETTER. lol. but first, I need to lean up...and be committed.....before summer conditioning starts. =,=;; and uh...yeah....cuz I'm still cleaning the house and it's hard to exercise when nobody's there to participate along with you. ~.o bye bye