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Now, I really don't like blaming people for the things that are wrong in my life, but today is just a special day where I want to blame people for some of the things that are wrong with this sad and slightly meaningless existance I lead. I would love to blame all of my unhappiness on my mom who, as most of you know, decided to move me across the country just so that she could be with the man she "loves". I would have no problem with this if, say, we lived in a small country, but no, I live in Canada, which is the second largest country in the world. I also have a large problem with the whole love thing, it just pisses me off beyond reckoning. Okay, now that I'm finished with that large amout of blame, moving on to my next victim. He who shall remain Nameless who soured me AgainsT love of any kind. It was this wHole on Again off agaiN relationship, but I was okay with the whole thing because I was blinded by my own stupidity on the matter. Once that ******** left he decided to take my will to live with him in his departure, and even now I feel the pain. I have a really awesome (and I won't forget HOT!!!!!) boyfriend, who I really like, but I still feel empty inside after that a** left me for some, what I can only assume is trailer trash, chick. When he left I started the whole, physical pain takes away the emotional pain thing so now I have to look like some suicidal freak for the rest of my life. Now I have but one person left to place my oddly large load of blame onto other than myself, another "friend" who at this point shall also remain nameless just because I've decided not to be a total b***h today. This person who I shall now call... Link, just for simplicity, has a life and story like no ohter. part of this problem is my fault because ever since I met him I've had an overwhelming attraction to him, and yet did nothing, until I decided in my depression to be quite rude, so he left. This wouldn't have bothered me so much if it weren't for the fact that Link is one of the greatest human beings I will probably ever incounter in my life, and he just doesn't want to talk to someone like me anymore. On twith the point, I blame Link for making me wake up to my own stupidity and heartlessness, which in the grand scheme of things might just make him the most important and no doubt the best thing that has ever happened in my lifetime. Okay, I'm done with the ranting, you can tar and feather me for my thoughts, you can flame me because I blamed you for something, I really don't care at this point, I just needed to get this all out before my inevitable explosion.