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It's been awhile since I ranted. I have realized this, and I accepted the fact that I've been really annoying and whiny lately. I understand that it has (probably) distressed most of you that I'm contemplating why I'm even alive. Hell, I don't deserve to live. I'm a dispenser of truths, even though most of you out there hate me.

I have two words for those who hate me:

******** YOU!!!

I can understand why you'd hate me. I, too, cater to my own negative phases from time to time.

I'm only human.

Call me your G-d, your Hashem, your Adonai. But I am no G-d. I am just another human, able to err. I bleed crimson just like everyone else.

I may be unusually wise beyond my fifteen years of life, but I am no stranger to emotion. I have been through quite a bit.

Does that make me better?

No. I am just like you, dear reader-- you. I , too, have felt the cold sting of pain and the hollowness of loneliness. But I no longer fear it. I embrace it. I am my only company.

I like it this way.

This is the way I have chosen to live. I can only hope that you can accept that about me.

Call me a loner, a self-centered and self-involved wretch.

I don't care.

I stopped caring long ago. Your assaults no longer hurt me.

I made my vow to never weep again for a reason.

I have kept my vow thus far.

And here, my dearest reader, my bitterest enemy, I leave you. Go frolic among the lies and webs of deceit woven by your own world. Go back to your families. Go back into reality. But remember my words.