My Blood Sister, you were always there for me, washing my wounds and soothing my soul. It is one of my greatest regrets that I could not return the favor. In my moment of absence, you died by your own hands, spurred on by a life of depravity, desolation and neglect. My Sister, the moment we became bound by a cut on the outside of our wrists was one of the happiest moments of my life. Finally, I felt that I belonged. But then you passed on to the Afterlife barely six months after that. May you, my Sister, Rest in Peace.
Meaghan,
I may never know the full reason for why you hung yourself in your bathroom on May 9, 2008 barely five minutes after Kyle Bergman left this Earth, but I will forever miss you. I still believe I could have prevented your demise, and perhaps I am correct, but since you, too, were my Blood Sister, I carry on your legacy as well as Gaby's. I will pass on your blood well, Sister.
For the both of you, I shall recite Kaddish Avelim, or the Mourner's Kaddish, something I did not do at your separate funerals. For this I apologize, for that is the way of my people. I guess I'm making up for lost time. . . I hope you can hear me now, from the Other Life. . .
Yisgadal v'yiskadash sh'mei rabbaw
(May His great Name grow exalted and sanctified)
B'allmaw dee v'raw chir'usei
(in the world that He created as He willed.)
v'yamlich malchusei,b'chayeichon, uv'yomeichon,
(May He give reign to His kingship in your lifetimes and in your days,)
uv'chayei d'chol beis yisroel,
(and in the lifetimes of the entire Family of Israel,)
ba'agawlaw u'vizman kawriv, v'imru: Amein.
(swiftly and soon. Now respond: Amen.)
(Cong: Amein.) Y'hei sh'mei rabbaw m'vawrach l'allam u'l'allmei allmayaw
([Cong Amen.] May His great Name be blessed forever and ever.)
Y'hei sh'mei rabbaw m'vawrach l'allam u'l'allmei allmayaw.
(May His great Name be blessed forever and ever.)
Yis'bawrach, v'yishtabach, v'yispaw'ar, v'yisromam, v'yis'nasei,
(Blessed, praised, glorified, exalted, extolled,)
v'yis'hadar, v'yis'aleh, v'yis'halawl sh'mei d'kudshaw b'rich hu
(mighty, upraised, and lauded be the Name of the Holy One, Blessed is He)
(Cong. b'rich hu).
(Cong. Blessed is He)
L'aylaw min kol birchawsaw v'shirawsaw,
(beyond any blessing and song,)
tush'b'chawsaw v'nechemawsaw, da'ami'rawn b'all'maw, v'imru: Amein
(praise and consolation that are uttered in the world. Now respond: Amen.)
(Cong. Amein).
(Cong. Amen).
Y'hei shlawmaw rabbaw min sh'mayaw,v'chayim
(May there be abundant peace from Heaven, and life)
awleinu v'al kol yisroel, v'imru: Amein
(upon us and upon all Israel. Now respond: Amen.)
(Cong. Amein).
(Cong. Amen).
Oseh shawlom bim'ro'mawv, hu ya'aseh shawlom,
(He Who makes peace in His heights, may He make peace,)
awleinu v'al kol yisroel v'imru: Amein
(upon us and upon all Israel. Now respond: Amen.)
(Cong. Amein).
(Cong. Amen).
