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On a Journey Through Darkness...
Some random thoughts from the disturbed mind of a 18 year old. Remember that not everything should be taken seriously. Read responsibly and responsively.
Because it's too long to be a comment on the last one...
This post is kinda random. There's no real underlying theme, because it's just all sorts of stuff I want to get out, and I don't want people to have to read through three or four posts from the same day. sweatdrop

Yeah... I forgot to mention that I decided not to count the Journal as posting, because it's one of those things that it feels like I'm not using it properly if I don't post frequently *coughtoxiccough*. xd

Yay! My family threw a birthday party for me on Saturday, because my dad's going to be deployed on my birthday itself. I got an iPodmini and I'm enjoying the heck out of it. Listening to it right now...

My real birthday's a week from Sunday, if anyone wanted to know. ninja And I have an actual short story up on coffeeSlave's Journal that I just posted. It's not actually part of the "Isaac Arc" but it's rather the beginning of another story arc I don't plan on developing until after I've written some of Isaac's.

Hmm. Bah, I'll just say it and get it out there; 'I like someone but I don't know what to say to her or how or when or...' Etc. I hate saying that, because it sounds like something someone younger and less mature then me would say, but it's still true. I've never asked someone out, so I really don't know any of that stuff. The only date I ever went on was a not-so-blind-date with a co-worker, where her mom (Weirdly enough, also a co-worker) and one of my friends (An ex-coworker) set everything up and cajoled me into saying, "Ok, I'll be there". So I really have no experience here. sweatdrop

I think my big stumbling blocks are: 1) I only see her at church (Occasionally) and Youth Group, when there are a lot of other people. 2) She's the talkative type, so it's kinda hard to start talking to her one-on-one. 3) I've got her phone-number, but it seems kinda inappropriate to call it, considering she didn't actually give it to me. (...No, I didn't stalk her for her phone number, I swear! ... Really. I needed to talk to her dad at one point about completely unrelated stuff.) and 4) I'm not sure if I should start a relationship anyways, considering I'll be going to college in the summer, and I think she might be moving away too. But then again, I'll hopefully be going to school with her brother.

Anyways... Sorry for dragging anyone reading this into my little love life... I guess that's part of what journals are for though, eh?


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  • User Comments: [7]
    Happy early birthday, can you convince my parents to get me one too? xd I asked a few days ago and got...what the heck is that?

    I'm horrible with relationships. Really. I've got this wall built up by now that like, maybe, MAYBE someone with a heavy battering ram and wrecking ball might be able to crack and sorta yell through the crack at me. My best advice is, just be yourself and if you get rejected, not your loss, hers.

    Most be a very anxiety-filled birthday for you.

    Btw, is she pretty? do tell.

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Tue Mar 08, 2005 @ 07:19pm
    I resent that little slip in there xp Watch ya self boi. Ooooh I'm bad!

    Okay, I think it's time for you to make a giant post about this girl. Kate and I need to know more, it's a girl thing but still... more more MORE! scream Gyar! That's exactly what journals are for. For posting random crap, and stuff about your love life.

    Anyway, advice time. Find common interests with this girl and talk to her about that kind of stuff. If it's something that you really like than you'll feel less awkward talking about it over time. And make sure that if it is something that you really like that you don't do all the talking. Sometimes when people get nervous they start going on and on, and don't give the other person a chance to talk. That's kind of a turn off.

    That and one of my pet peeves that Dy does to me sometimes is don't randomly change the subject unless it's dying! stressed If it seems like this girl likes whatever it is your talking about the subject will naturally evolve, don't go "Oh! Well let's see if she's interested in this too!" It get's really annoying after awhile.


    comment Decrepit Faith · Community Member · Tue Mar 08, 2005 @ 07:51pm
    Is she pretty? ...Did you really just ask me that? xd

    *Napolean Dynamite voice* She's only like God took my dreams and made a person out of them!

    comment I.Am · Community Member · Wed Mar 09, 2005 @ 08:41pm
    Lol. what's stopping you from asking?

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Thu Mar 10, 2005 @ 01:03am
    Well it doesn't seem right to do it in front of everyone at Youth Group, and I'm afraid I'll scare her away if I show up at her door or call her or something. o.O

    comment I.Am · Community Member · Thu Mar 10, 2005 @ 02:33am
    wimp. I mean not like I'm one to talk. Considering the guy I've liked for four years has never been asked anywhere by me. He did take me to homecoming though, because I sent out a letter asking someone to snag me a ticket so I could go. He's a nice friend. Bleck. I hate liking friends. Good luck to you.

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Thu Mar 10, 2005 @ 08:15pm
    Oh, the frustrations of love. sweatdrop Sometimes... I just hate it. Though I'm not the best example right now, because the guy I had a crush on 3 years ago so badly apparently had a crush on me then, too... but we were just a bunch of idiots, then and now. But we became friends over the years, drama-buddies and dorks and the like, so we were close anyway, until college. Just had to wait... Well, now I am with him, oddly enough, and I'm pretty content, except that I hate how I can't tell what he is thinking, dammit heart xp wink stressed scream whee gonk crying heart (damn emotions). So, yeah... I hate that feeling, in the pit of your stomach? No? Oookai, I'll stop now. @_@;; Love sucks.

    Happy early Birthday, BTW. This sunday, right? wink Don't get into any trouble, now. Unless you're like me and spend half your fun time bored as hell and wishing you could do something wild and fun. If so, then... GET OUT THERE! xd

    comment Gadita · Community Member · Fri Mar 18, 2005 @ 08:08pm
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