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Is it the end?
Everything has been going down hill for quite sometime. Ever since that one day. I hoped, waited, and wished for everything to get better and be ok. Maybe it was because I had wanted to prove so many people wrong, or maybe it was because I had too high of hopes and felt crushed by the things that didn't go the way I wanted them to go, but things worsened. I lost another friend, and I had thoughts about things again, I hoped again that maybe it wouldn't get any worse. Then today happened. Got worse and the tie between me and Zero was broken. I have never been hurt so much in my life before. My heart is crushed. I am unhappy once again.
I don't want to date for awhile again either. I feel it may take a year or more to get over how I feel right now. I once again will chose not to believe promises. I don't feel like I want to trust anyone anymore. I will once again shut most things out of my life. Solitude is there waiting for me right around the corner again. Shall I turn there? A part of me wants to.. but the other part wants to turn back.
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I know that you probably don’t want to hear this….but it’s nice for me to find someone to relate with……if your pain is close to or even worse then what mine is and has been, I’m extremely sorry for you…..