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As of today
Little by little I'll get over things. But I still don't want to. I had been in the counselors office yesterday and today. Not only because I was feeling hurt from Zero but it's the fact that trying to get over that is very difficult and it's distracting me in school. I am still trying to get over the death of another friend as well, and all at the same time worrying about myself. Spreading cysts are as painful as being smashed in the stomach or rib cage with a metal bat. Now imagine that on the ovaries too. I will be tagging along with my mom to the dermatologist also. That's a few weeks away and it looks like odds are against me again. I'll have to have a biopsy. I don't know what I want or need right now. The company of friends makes me cry and family isn't any better. I still want to shut out so many things in my life and just forget.
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