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On a Journey Through Darkness...
Some random thoughts from the disturbed mind of a 18 year old. Remember that not everything should be taken seriously. Read responsibly and responsively.
...Loneliness on That Road Lies.
And now, for some poetry. This first one I wrote about two years ago, when I moved back to Texas away from beautiful Virginia. I like it.

The second one is referring to my continuing lack of love life. xp

<center>Alone
(Name now edited out because it makes me nervous xp )

I sit in my room,
All alone.
I think about everything,
'bout my friends far from home.

Off 'way in Virginia, California, Pompei,
Why do they have to be so far away?
Why can't they be here with me,
Or why couldn't I stay?

I cry into my pillow,
Wonder why I'm so sad.
I have a great life,
It really isn't all that bad.

Off in the distance,
On the wild Texan plains,
I hear an anguished howl,
That echos my pains.

I lift my head up,
And look out toward that cry,
A wolf weeping through the night,
And I can't help but wonder why.

Has that wolf lost it's friends?
Family? A mate?
Or maybe, like me,
It merely mourns it's own fate.

Note: I tried to make the wolf a coyote, since those are more common on the 'Texan plains', buut... That's didn't rhyme right. smile

Haiku
I am loved by all
But I continue to be,
Treasured by none</center>

Yeah, so my life is such a sob story. sweatdrop Not really, I'm just depressed all the time. I probably have some sort of disorder, but I don't care enough to have it checked or anything. Or maybe I care too much that they will put me on pills. xp


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  • User Comments: [10]
    Or maybe you're an average teen? jk.

    I like the alone one. The haiku is good too, I never really got into those. Don't worry though, there are many who share your fate and eventually, you either find someone or you won't.

    So encouraging.

    Then again, I am the shrew, so my views on love are a bit depressing.

    Don't worry though, once girls get serious about dating, they tend to like guys like you.

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Thu Oct 07, 2004 @ 07:10am
    Thanks. I think "Alone" is the best poem I've ever written, which says something about my skills. xd

    Yeah, I keep telling myself that. It doesn't help much. sweatdrop

    comment I.Am · Community Member · Thu Oct 07, 2004 @ 10:14pm
    Whatever your dating luck is, it's better than mine. I keep telling myself that too....my problem is my standards are, "If he's good enough for me, he's too good for me," which causes me to lower my standards at times because such a guy doesn't exist in the sense of being stupid enough to date me. xd


    Edit: I was trying to remember and then I remembered. Like Elizabeth Bennet in Pride and Prejudice. "If I could love a man who loved me enough to take me for a mere 50 pounds a year, I shall be very happy indeed. But such a man could hardly be sensible, and you know I can't marry someone who isn't sensible." er something like that.

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Thu Oct 07, 2004 @ 10:19pm
    I've only ever been on one date, and that was because I really didn't have much choice: My friend and the mother of the girl who had a crush on me (Which I have trouble getting my mind over... Someone having a crush on me... eek ) basically told me I should do it until I agreed. Supposedly, it was supposed to be a 'blind' date, but I was pretty certain of who it was beforehand.

    So I don't know about that. wink

    comment I.Am · Community Member · Fri Oct 08, 2004 @ 12:17am
    Never date someone you don't want to. Doesn't do well.

    Course, you're a guy, so it might be different for you.

    And you don't come equipped with Kate-Sense.


    Floored by someone having a crush on you? Dunno what sorta girls you have down there....then again, a lot would probably do the same up here, nevermind. at 17, I mean. 18. Around there. Course, I don't actually talk to these girls, I just hear their conversations. You don't wanna date them. Unless you're extremely horny and non-commital.....



    Edit: Hmm. I just described the average teen male.

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Fri Oct 08, 2004 @ 12:39am
    I'm insulted, you think I'm normal? xd

    comment I.Am · Community Member · Fri Oct 08, 2004 @ 02:14am
    Now when I say you wouldn't like them unless you are the average male, it means you're weird. lol. Wait, not weird. "Special." The carebears still love you, though.

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Fri Oct 08, 2004 @ 02:21am
    Haha I suck at poetic critiquing I'm way too picky so I'll comment on the other stuff instead. xp

    Being depressed really sucks, I have cronic depression, I feel your pain. Definitally get it checked out, it may be nothing. Actually I know some websites you can look at if you'd like. I'll find them later I have to call Col right now.

    And the doctor won't force you onto meds, and you're allowed going off them whenever you want. I was on prozac for a little while, but I've been off of it for over a year now.


    comment Decrepit Faith · Community Member · Sat Oct 09, 2004 @ 04:11am
    Lol....my doctor took me straight off 200mg of zoloft for prozac...that's a BAD thing....major crash.

    comment lymelady · Community Member · Sun Oct 10, 2004 @ 08:34pm
    I edited the post, because I realized one of the verses was unfinished (Off 'way in Virginia, California, ), because I'd taken out somewhere that didn't really make sense. Of course, I don't know anyone in Pompei either, but... Come on! xd "You question your king's grammar? It had to rhyme!"

    Anyways, I also replaced the weird things that were appearing instead of single quotes. o.O

    comment I.Am · Community Member · Mon Oct 11, 2004 @ 10:46pm
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