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Wazzup people?! Don't ask me why I'm writing in this, cuz I really don't know... To take up time I guess... My back hurts really bad cuz I slammed my spinal cord into Sean's headboard on his bed. Daddy's gonna look at it later... I think it's swollen... It hurt really bad when I leaned over the rail on my desk to get mine and Ed's note which was laying on his book bag. He's really starting to worry me again... He said he felt like he was going back to his dark self, and I REALLY don't like that. I told him I didn't want to sit up at night crying anymore, wondering if he was ok, and if he'd hurt himself, or worse, killed himself. He promised me he'd never get that bad again. Lets just hope that's the way it stays. I couldn't deal with it if he tried to kill himself again...I'd go into another massive breakdown, worse than last time... I don't know when I'd come out of it if something really happened to him.... Eliza and I have talked about it so much it's not funny... I told her today I really couldn't take it again. If he tried to kill himself again, I didn't know what I would do... He means so much to me, dispute his actions and oddness sometimes.... I know how sweet he can be, even if he does have that inkering of a temper Bret always seems to get caught in... Yes, Eliza was right, I deserved the named Sakura... I chase after him, and follow him, and it's obvious he cares about me, not just from his actions, but from what he's told me, but he still seems oblivious to me existence sometimes.... Wow, this started out being a random thought post, and turned out all sappy!