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I think i'm falling into a state of depression. I'm not being myself, I don't know why, this isn't me... how could I have expected something so wonderful to come so easily *Sighs*
Kate, I just really don't know what to do! I do have my own fantasies as well, and in a way, they have caused me to expect too much of the world, but I have held onto the hope that someone would change all that.
Well, that someone was you.
For years, I knew that my love for things unreal would hold me back. I wouldn't be able to put my full feelings into something. I thought that even if I found someone that these thoughts, memories and dreams wouldn't fade away.
To answer your question more completely.

Yes. I have given it some thought, and most of the time, something bad(on any scale) must happen for something good to happen. They have to equal out. I can't even think of what I would be doing or where i would be right now if my parents didn't divorce. But it just doesn't feel right thanking the bad events in our lives for providing us with the happiness of receiving the good times. If you understand what I mean.
If nothing bad happens, things are just going to seem normal, and even if something good happens, it wouldn't be as great as if you were already in a bad state. The same for the opposite. If something good happens, it slowly dies down to being normal. but if something bad happens directly after that good thing, it feels so much worse.
*Sigh* now i'm just ranting on again.

Because it's happened just recently, the good news that you had for me, but now it's suddenly changed and look at what's happening to us.
*Hugs* All we can do right now is wait it out, i mean, of course I want to do something about it, but things might just get worse.

I'll always love you no matter what though, I just hope I get a chance to prove it...