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The Bible says that we all have a gift that makes us different that we should use for the good of others and spreading the Word of God. To this I say "what do I have that makes me special and unique?" But to which I get no respond. Now let me get this straight, I do have faith. I go to church and I listen and follow most of the Teachings. I do. And I understand the Bible and that God has a plan for everybody. But tell me Lord. What do I have? I'm not good-looking, hell, I'm fat and you can barely see my eyes. I'm lazy. Don't do anything that's worth doing. I'm average in grades. Yeah, that's regular talents that only certain people have. Woop-di-do for them. But what I thought made me different and what I though could help me was the fact that I'm a musician. And well, that just goes out the window when I can't play sixteenth notes at 180 beats per minute and the rest of the band can play it. Then I thought "Hey, what about sports?" Yeah, doesn't that just sound great? Well look at me now. After our team has gone through the season and our greatest achievment is the fact that we tied a team, I have two tackles....So I try being nice and helpful. And wouldn't you know it? My friends walk over me. So now I turn our bitter, mean, a bit perverted (though I'm not sure how I got into that habit), average in everything I do and what do I do best? Games.....and sub-par at best compared to some people's standards. Oh well, I'm sure that I still need to keep looking for some talent.