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First football game today

I was....well above average in socializing with people

I feel accepted in band

Then when I am invited:

"hey bradley! want to go to Perkins after the game?"

"nah, I don't feel like it"

"why?"

"I just DON'T okay?"

so now I'm sitting here, 3:11 in the morning, typing this wondering why the hell I didn't say yes

I know I'm rather reclusive, I know I'm not a rather social, friendly people

I'm lucky if I'm talking to more than one person online

I ask again, why do I do this? I used to be so social, now I seemed to developed that anxiety disorder