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Is easy for me to type on the computer and expressed my feelings

I don't why

but went I'm actually talking I don't say mush

words are on my mind but I can't get them out of my mouth

I think is because I actually don't talk mush about my feelings to

people

this is why I like gaiaonline I like to type on my journal

and get some of my thoughts out

there's lots of people that tell me

why don't I keep my journal privet

if is personal

well is because this journal is like a door way in to my mind and feelings

and I want people to know me the real me

there's only a few people in gaia that actually know me

I'm glad to have meet this people

I'm happy to have them in my life

my heart is happier and I'm in a better path tours

the future a mush happier and better me a waits there

my heart has taken a lot of punishment throughout the years

I think the suffering has stop

I have this feeling in my heart that makes me happy

and makes me smile from time to time

is hard to describe this feeling

I don't think there's words that could

all I know is that my heart has been doing better

is still trying to heal from all this year of hard

battles it has been on

sometimes I do get sad but not like I use to

Know sadness is only a little pain inside me

it doesn't bother me like it use to

I use to question why I was put in this planet in the first place

suffering every day and hiding my feeling from the world

turn me into a very quiet person

and know that I actually want to tell someone my feelings

I find my self being unable to speak

bit by bit I'm putting the pieces of the puzzle together

and once I see the hole picture like I was suppose to do in the

first place

I will be able to turn in to a better person

and I will be able to talk more