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	In the end it begins again
	In the end it begins again


Mood ~Sore, Anxious, Nervous, Pissed, Indifferent, Excited~ Music ~Red rain -Peter Gabriel~ I went snowboarding for the first time yesterday. I love it and the fact that there really is a sport that can intrigue me. I'm sore from the effort not, from falling on my a (cuz that didn't happen much), but from the physical effort that my muscles exerted. Something that they had not indulged in for a long time...since we settled into the new shop at least. I have never been insulted easily. At least up until recently. What does one do when one spends their life believing they have no heart and it being proved in their actions when suddenly, unexpectedly, they find they have one or it just started working again? Insults hurt, emotions I could easily keep in check overwhelm me! I hate my heart sometimes. Rising, unbidden, from the depths of me to prove my own undoing! Blast it all and whoever wished it upon me! Dream I wish......... Paranine** · Mon Jan 17, 2005 @ 09:00pm · 22 Comments


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	Heh, I bet you enjoyed snowboarding...I always fell on my a.. Im such a goofy fu..zzle xp So someone proved to you that you have a heart huh? Im glad you know you have such a damned thing...without it, how would you feel true emotion? Offline Charcoal Wings** · Community Member · Tue Jan 18, 2005 @ 04:56am


	Yeah but now I feel like I was wretched in half and sown together again crying I WOULDN'T!!! That's the whole point of me NOT wanting it. stare It leaves me in too much of a vulnerable position for my comfort. I have been insulted more times in more painful ways than I care to acknowledge at the moment. I have has most if not all of my faults shoved in my face, the offender wearing a despicable cloak of self-rightiousness, with such stinging and, in most cases, unjust rebuke! Should this world be different, I'd plead for you to remove the thrice accursed thing before it does any irreversable harm!!!! scream gonk stressed sweatdrop Offline Paranine · Community Member · Tue Jan 18, 2005 @ 06:25am


	crying I know how that feels sometimes...but I was always the one to tear myself open...Most people are vurnerable when it comes to their heart...Its your inner soft spot, and provacitive things will only cut and bruise the heart...but if you take insults in too much, you a pouring the salt in yourself boots. Your faults should should not be looked on as failures and such, but just things you should make up for, which im pretty damn sure you have enough good qualities to. You shouldn't let anyone tell you differently....and I rather have my heart and feel pain and love, then have no heart at all boots...just something to think about. Offline Charcoal Wings · Community Member · Tue Jan 18, 2005 @ 02:22pm


	I CHALLENGE YOU TO SNOWBOARDING!!!!! Topic of the Heart: Cool! You got a heart! Who did you borrow it from THIS time? xd [I'm sorry; I couldn't help myself.] Offline Viirage · Community Member · Tue Jan 18, 2005 @ 08:26pm


	@Fu Fu- Yeah. But how they are shoved at me I doubt I can avoid them as failures. I was always one to think anything wrong with me is a failure (I grew up that way) I alreay feel love without one, thank you...how could I not when I am the Goddess of Love xd ( crying ) @ Raziel- U? Snowboard? This I gotta see. xd Well I think it cam from the dude I killed not too long ago....must have slipped in some how....Dammit.... Offline Paranine · Community Member · Thu Jan 20, 2005 @ 02:19am


	Yes, I snowboard...you shall seeth the Nosgoth savior HIT THE SNOW! Booyaka. As for the heart...how in the hell does it slip in there? It has GOT to have a life of it's own! eek Like with legs, arms and stuff...creepy...Yet you are the Goddess Of Love, and hearts will gravitate towards you whether you accept them, somehow inhale them into your chest [?], or break them. xd You're still an awesome person though, Kain. Offline Viirage · Community Member · Thu Jan 20, 2005 @ 06:11am


	How long have you bee boarding anyways? 0_o If it DID have arms n' legs n' stuff that would freak me out! You try being the Goddesss of Hearts for a while!! crying Not as fun and easy as it might sound gonk Offline Paranine · Community Member · Tue Jan 25, 2005 @ 12:20am


	If I were the Goddess Of Love, courting your crush would be a damn battle ground. And probably no emotions would even come out. If any heart came gravitating toward me, I'd either do a battle stradegy: a) Run as fast as I can, or B) Get a fly swatter and give a battle cry, and beat it to death. And the battle ground and war areas would be a place of great harems and worship if you took my place as God of War/Death. sweatdrop Offline Viirage · Community Member · Thu Jan 27, 2005 @ 01:35am


	Do not underestimate my role as Deathe or Giltine...I make a good Deathe twisted Offline Paranine · Community Member · Sat Jan 29, 2005 @ 01:01am


	Didn't mean for it to come across as underestimation. I just wanted to point out that since we're polar opposites, most likely both worlds would be turned upside down -- literally. Offline Viirage · Community Member · Sat Jan 29, 2005 @ 11:33pm


	I find that I'm not as opposite of you as it might seem so yes my world might be tweaked a little but playing the part of Deathe would be mighty fun twisted Offline Paranine · Community Member · Sun Jan 30, 2005 @ 07:47pm


	As playing the Goddess of Love for me would be traumatizing. sweatdrop Offline Viirage · Community Member · Sun Jan 30, 2005 @ 10:12pm


	(0.O)! Yeah that would be traumatizing shudder Offline Paranine · Community Member · Mon Jan 31, 2005 @ 03:10am


	Do you think you could survive being the Goddess of Sex? I mean, not even I can handle it without freaking out three seconds into it! gonk Offline Viirage · Community Member · Mon Jan 31, 2005 @ 11:46pm


	I am one of the most flirtatious people I know of...yeah I can handle it blaugh Offline Paranine · Community Member · Wed Feb 02, 2005 @ 01:11am


	Yes...your flirting skills are l33t. They are fearsome and awesome...and...scaaaaaaarrrry! gonk Offline Viirage · Community Member · Wed Feb 02, 2005 @ 03:06am


	0_o? Scary?? (To men at least twisted ) Offline Paranine · Community Member · Fri Feb 04, 2005 @ 12:44am


	Yeah...because, well, I'm watching guys just crumble at your very finger tips. It's like Raziel watching Kain transform the masses into a worshipping cult to his image. gonk Offline Viirage · Community Member · Sun Feb 06, 2005 @ 02:32am


	But you did do that...I mean I had you help me run my Empire that was most of Nosgoth! xd And O men really crumble at me fingertips? Delicious! twisted domokun heart Offline Paranine · Community Member · Tue Feb 08, 2005 @ 11:38pm


	I think Raziel only did it because that was now considered his Dad. Offline Viirage · Community Member · Fri Feb 11, 2005 @ 05:52am


	Sure you say that now but I didn't see you complain when you started your own very large Clan! domokun heart Offline Paranine · Community Member · Sun Feb 13, 2005 @ 07:18pm


	Raziel has no clan! Offline Viirage · Community Member · Tue Feb 15, 2005 @ 03:49am

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