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God?! why must you make me suffer?
i know ive done things in the past that i regret....
but why torcher me right now?
i feel as if my heart is being torn out of my body....
damn it.....
Im always cold....
now in days.....i feel as if my body is dead.....
I have to try hard not to freeze....
my whole body hurts right now....
there is barely any hope for me at all.....
why?
Friends turning on me because they have someone new in their lives...?
True friends are supose to be by your side whenever you need them.....
i guess i was wrong about this person....
I need time to heal now....
All because of this person.....
I feel so worthless right now.....
I have barely any reason to stay alive....
I could disappear & make everyone happy.....
.....but.....
do i really think it will help?
Im not sure if it will make you happy or not.....
I just hope to make the right choice....
My body feels so hurt right now.....
Im freezing.....
I dont know why i am.....
But i want all of this to stop.....
I wish you can be here.....
.....you would hold me in your arms.....
And make me feel better.....
when you are by my side.....
I feel very safe.....
yet again.....
how long will it be?
Untill i go out of control?
You may not be able to help me then.....
I may not even survive.....
I fear.....
that if i get out of control.....
.....I may even hurt you.....
I dont want this to happend....
you mean the world to me.....
& i dont want to hurt you....
I care to much to even have the guts to do that....
If i ever do anything to hurt you.....
I would be in solitude.....
I could never forgive myself.....
even if you say "its okay...."
it will never heal me....
my heart.....
will have to pay for my actions....
I can't think straight.....
so cold now.....
I just wanted to make your dreams come true.....
Im sorry......
Im so ******** worthless.....
I couldn't even help you with that....
for this....
I am very sorry....
I love you all.....
.........I Hope I Made Your Dreams Come True.........
 Mar Mar Ryusaki · Sun Oct 01, 2006 @ 04:13am · 0 Comments |
