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....Jeez....
what to do now????
I feel completly lost in this world.
Somebody...
Anybody...
Come save me...
Help me...
I need somebody to embrace this very moment
I feel so wrong...
Im sorry to tell you all this...
But...
I almost went to the hospital...
Thank god...
I didn't go...
I hate hospitals even thought they help you.
I NEED to be surrounded by my friends & my loved one.
so many things happening to me.
I hate these feelings i feel.
Why can't i DIE already!?
I hate myself so much!!
I have this feeling...
I feel like i have no purpose in life.
I can NEVER make anyone i love happy.
Let's just face it.
Im just a worthless human.
Looking for a purpose in life.
Too bad....
This wont ever happend...
I dont have a purpose,
The only thing i can come up with,
is to make people misable.
I want this s**t to stop.
DAMN IT!
I hate this ******** feeling!
Yet.
No one will let me do anything.
They dont want me to hurt myself.
My body...
Is trying to move to hurt myself....
My mind....
Is telling me...
"dont do it! you will regret it!"
I dont feel like living anymore,
Im just so tired of the way things go in my pathetic life....
Just say it now.....


.....YOUR USING ME......
......FOR YOUR OWN ENTERTAINMENT......

I dont care anymore.
talk all the s**t you want to say....before....
**grabs her head & falls on her knees**
I CAN TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!
**sobs in a corner, not knowing what to do**
W-what am i.....I have no purpose....Let me be...all alone...
I dont want to cause anymore pain to you....
I can never make you happy....& i dont think....
...I can't EVEN do it now...