wow.
We are all now in a new year!
I am happy.
yet.
I feel sad?
I don't know...I just been a bit down.
probably because
Christmas eve...
what a horrible day that was...
I can't bring myself to say.
' I was scared '
I was just so happy that...
I spend Christmas with my friend..
Kairi,
She took me in when I was in fear of everything for those hours.
After I spent a bit of the day with her,
I had found out.
That My mother,
Had gone with my ungrateful father.
They can't be together
I guess they are getting a divorce?
But, that's not the point.
What Im trying to get at is...
Me, my sister, my brother....
Had to spend Christmas alone...
by ourselves...
My brother had said.
" I guess we spent Christmas alone "
When he said that...
I was about to cry...
We always have our aunt...
We were are her house when he said that.
Opening presents....
of which we thought we wouldn't get at all that christmas..
I never really though of it...
I just wanted to spend it with my family....
guess my present didn't come true this holiday...
This I will never forget...also...
I don't think I can even see my father with out yelling at him.
What am I saying?!
WHY the hell would I want to see him?
Many people say this to me & my brother & sister,
"wow, you guys have a tough life right now, you guys are still so young though"
Yes, it's true..
This is not the life I wanted for up coming years...
I guess.
It can't be helped...
But people always say this too,
"At least you got each other"
Which includes me, my brother & sister.
At least,
I have them right?
I won't give up hope that my life will be okay as long as I have them by my side
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......Sandra, Angelo......
...Thank you for being with me through out the years...
1992-2007
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