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Hey, well I just got in from visiting my grandmother, it hurts to see her sometimes because she's been in the hospital for so long. Each time I see her she asks me where Roni is, and it tears me apart inside because she really liked Roni and I don't have the heart to tell her that we're not together anymore. Why is life full of so much pain and indecision, and why does it have to be so difficult. I guess it wouldn't be as interesting if it were easy but it would be a lot more simple and less painful. Right now I've gotten one friend mad at me for a promise I made to my ex who I still love, yet I would do it all again the same way because i do still love Roni and I didn't think it'd be that big of a deal. I think it's probably best that I take a break from hanging out with this person because if we continue it'd cause undo drama and stress in my life and I just don't think it'd be worth it, that and the fact that it seemed like she was falling for me, which would have been really bad, she'd end up hurt for sure because I am still in love with someone else, and they used to be friends and it would just once again add way to much stress and drama into everyone's lives.

So yeah I think it's best I'm alone until I'm either not so much in love anymore or until I find someone else that I can love and not have things get really weird and messed up with. I'm happy by myself right now, I still have friends and music to help me get through things. Lately Lonely Day has been a really good song to listen to, it makes me feel like I'm not the only person that's really lonely in this world, because since I've been single even when I'm around most people I feel lonely and alone. Still yeah I guess I'll stop here for my update on my life, have a good one.
-Jamie emo