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Its been a while since i wrote here, well its been a while since i've been here. I started school, i droped my job and i mostly go on myspace. the address on myspace is http://myspace.com/bebe3kisses thats my page and ill try 2 b on here more but when i go 2 school i be so tired and go 2 sleep when i get home but i do h.w on the computer and i always check my myspace and my yahoo messenger always b on but if any one trys 2 talk 2 me and they get ignored, its not me its anyone on the computer thats under my name. Well with me things i guess is getting better...so far. Its funny how my boyfriend this summer treated me like i was someone else and a lil cold, u'd kno if u read the previous entries and now it's like everythings changed. he asked me 2 marry him eek , it felt great an all but i can't completely understand emotionally. Its like im confused. He said he loves me and he says some really deep emotional stuff 2 me 2 let me kno how he feels but i look back at the past and wonder how thats possible. Yes i seriously care about him but i mean i need 2 see how much he loves me and feel it 2. He shows me all of that but i want 2 c more becuz i was really hurt last summer. i love him and no matter how unhappy iam with some things i'll always keep trying 4 hope. Things are ok and getting better now but i guess i just don't wanna be in pain any more thats why, him asking me 2 marry him is a lil odd 2 me but i felt good. i'll try 2 find peace in my heart 2 love him the same again maybe with serious trust if thats the issue with me