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Is the world spinning 2 fast for me, are my lungs at a point where sooner or later, it'll drown in it's own blood. Like i wonder what's gonna happen after this point, i know im away at college and me and my EX are over but, i cant ever stop thinkin about him, like all i ever see and think about is me and him in the far future...like i dont think he understands that, like he thought i moved on and i really didn't but look at him he's already had an experienced with 2 other people, and he possiblely has a relationship, like what's gonna happen now or pass this point. Like if he was in my position which he was and i told him those things i think that he probably woulda wanted 2 die and never talk 2 me any more. Like he wants me 2 wait 4 him but, when u think about it he didnt wait 4 me after a while and i notice we always switch places in situations...so what's gonna happen to me, he my not lose me but how do i know i may not turn out some what like him or something like that. Like im scared for what the future my hold for me or me and him. i guess all i can do is what i'm supose to far as school and let time pass. I just hope my heart isn't gonna die for this, it's been through some rough spikey tunnels through my life, lets just hope my heart can survive this one.