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I'm not a materialist person but also not a people person Either.

I have unrealistic views of people. More like dreams, Dreams of getting married and having kids. Perfect life. But i know its unrealistic expectations. Unrealistic views. I don't do drama. I don't do confrontations. People who are confrontational have called the cops on me for doing absolutely nothing wrong. sad I beeped at someone to warn her that shes getting close to hitting my car. She got out and started coming at me. I sat in my car. Locked my car. Got my phone out to film her. She called the cops because i beeped my horn. I told the cops all this. She didn't tell them she got out of the car to confront me, and threw a tantrum once the cops left. A week later, her bumper was all smashed in. I wonder how...

I don't feel like i'm materialist either. Although I buy stuff to make myself feel better. Am i the beginning of hoarding? Probably. But i also donate a lot of stuff I don't use either. I try to resell. But nothing ever works out for me. sad I know items don't make me happy. I don't know why though. I'm just not happy....and no one cares.