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I am open to connection, but I carry a quiet weariness.

❤️Let's practice this mantra
When it comes to connections, whether friendships or potential romantic partners, remember: “I deserve an abundance of love and mutual connection.”
“I pledge to always do right by myself and others.” Stay open to new connections, no matter the negative experiences you’ve faced. Being open means you keep giving yourself the chance to try again.

Here are some ways to remain open without being worn down by fatigue:
Always express what you’re interested in. If things don’t work out, try communicating again. But if a solution to a past problem keeps getting challenged, it might be time to let go of that connection. Remember to pace yourself—you don’t have to do everything at once. Take some time to pause and reflect.

It’s no surprise that building connections online has become harder. Covid hit, leaving us feeling isolated, and over time, work demands and the struggle to balance personal life have just kept piling up.

I’ve come to see that boundaries aren’t walls, but invitations to meet me where care is mutual. When I meet those rare souls who give back as much as I give to them, I know I’ve found a connection worth holding onto.

Without self-awareness, an imbalance can arise, leading to feelings of depression, rejection, or doubt about one’s worth. Fortunately, there are ways to prevent this. It’s important to stay open yet remain guarded, as this balance fosters emotional maturity.

That imbalance taught me something: generosity without reciprocity is erosion.
It wears away at the self until you learn to guard your shoreline.

💌Say it with me! the message of self love!

Now, I measure connection differently.
I no longer drink from empty wells.
I wait for the ones who bring their own oceans, that sways in all directions, all around. For the ocean is self-aware, and makes extensions without hesitation.

I claim its potential with ease, because it isn’t frightening to try.
It feels natural—just as a river carves its course through the land,
so does mutual care carve its place in me.

We step into it’s uncertain depths, with confidence.

You got this!

My former thought of wanting to close myself off, dissipates little by little, for there is joy in being a free little nightingale to sing in the open, not caged by the weariness of travel. To share my song, of who I am, and there may be the pleasant of travelers to bid me hello.

Be well.