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My deepest feelings
nothing more to live for
Today is the day were i felt nothing would go right for me at all. i feel as if everthitng in mylife has gone by so quick that theres nothing more for em to do then to pass on. i feel as if no on really cares anymore what i do. Everyday im slowly killing myself someway, if its taking the pills or not taking them im not sure anymore.

As a friend told me the other day love is dieing, and im starting to think he was right. No one wants love anymore they want sex and they want it now. Unfortunetly i have fallen down the wrong path and not towards love. And im pretty sure nothing can change it. Love is pretty much nothing tom e anymore after losing the guy who was my entire life for almost a year. As my friend would say he was"scum, worthless, or trash" but you didnt see the side saw. The kind man who loved me for who was not what i was or what i look like.


Nikita_Rose
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  • User Comments: [5]
    this world is a rotten place full of people who care nothing more then to please themselves... a person like you, who see it for more then it's worth, shouldn't give up so easily.

    there isn't much i can say that would make you change your mind, if you really want to "pass on" as you say, but let me tell you this, if you're doing it just because of some guy leaving you, then i sorry for you.... love comes and it goes, but the important thing here is that you live it to it's fullest when it's yours.

    when you least expect it love will come your way again, have courage to live for that time and bask in it's glory.... heart

    comment sakura_phoenix · Community Member · Tue Dec 28, 2004 @ 11:24pm
    oh baby. im so sorry. i love you. with me, you can come back to the love path. dont look towards the past and commiserate, look towards the past and learn for the future. you are my future. i love you. unending unconditional love.

    comment i_gotta_dollar69 · Community Member · Tue Dec 28, 2004 @ 11:56pm
    tell it like it is.i know what its like not to be loved.how cares about me .no one. thats how.im on a dark room .scared that they for got about me.

    comment crow66 · Community Member · Thu Dec 30, 2004 @ 04:45am
    I've never really loved anyone, I felt I did once, but she told me that she was uncapable of loving (because she thought it was useless) and I was left alone. She is going to commit suicide at age 18, so I guess it's no use in telling her how I feel. Love is fotting inside me, and I think it hurts when I think about it. I liked a guy too, but he thinks he's not good enough. I hate mysef sometimes. We're all sad sad people on the inside, but all we really need to do is bury that side of us because it is mourning over the past, and the past is unforgiving and has a bad aftertaste. xp

    comment Jiigoku · Community Member · Thu Dec 30, 2004 @ 08:45pm
    Awe sweetie life does get rough and yes, love hurts. But, you need to get past those things. Just take time off for yourself, and think about what you need.

    Everyone has something worth living for. It's just a matter of finding what's trully special to yourself.

    comment Bladed wing · Community Member · Mon Jan 10, 2005 @ 04:33pm
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