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Have you ever wondered what happens after you hit rock bottom? people say you only go up from there. But what happens if you dont. What if you dwell on the bottom and mkae things worse? Everything I do, is a mistake in a way. I always manage to screw things up. I dont know if its the fact that I push myself to think I'm a screw up, or that I really am one.

Have you ever wondered if people really do care? Like when you tell them something, and they act as if your not there. I've started to realize that I'm alone in the world. As if theres no one there for me. I feel like no understands me anymore. That I have changed, and no one else understands.

I'm sick of people, who get the sick and twisted pleasure of seeing people in pain. They think as long as theydont get hurt, that it doesnt matter about anyone else. I hope oneday someting terrible will happen to them. In the end they will my ultimate suicide...