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That's my noise when I get 'happy'-Murrererer. Yes, I have major problems O.o But I'm happy I guess. Not right now because Jane's been bashing me all day, but I'm happy with my social life, finally. I'm soo glad about that. ::Sigh:: I'm getting closer to a person on Gaia too, Red Water, she's cool mhmm, someone nice to talk to. Mmph, I had a break down on Saturday. I was talked Mike to sleep and I kept on talking to thin air for another fourty five minutes I think and I started reliving memories. Like that time my mom was in the psyche ward in Wisconson with 'Dr Cockapoo.' Neh...How she got tied down in that little room with no windows and she kept crying for the sun and...How she screamed for me when they wheeled her to the elevator to take her to a hospital and I grabbed her hand and she said, "Megan I love you, I love you Megan, you're my only daughter, I love you soo much," and I cried and looked into her eyes and they were blank. It was like she was dead. Neh...So I explained all this and other things that didn't matter to thin air and I started shaking and bawling while Mike slept on behined me. When David knocked on the door and he woke up he never noticed my cheeks were wet, David doubled back to me once but I don't think he figured I was crying. To the air. To nothing. ::Shrug::

Night time.