It's Hard to Tell
It's hard to tell when all I see
when all I seem is only for me.
I think, I dream, I hope, I love
but no one seems to feel the same.
For the longest time I felt alone,
betrayed, forgotten, rejected.
I thought I could never love,
or be loved, because of the dark.
But, unfortunately for me,
It's hard to tell...
It's hard to tell when someone looks
and sees what I never can.
When my eyes are happy, or sad,
when my smile can make the sun come out.
I see so many beautiful faces,
faces that think that they are alone.
I know so many hearts, such beautiful hearts
that bleed and die the way mine does.
But they also cannot see what I see
It's just too hard to tell.
Life has shown me so many truths
So many lies
and oh so much pain between the two.
The beauty and joy almost forgotten...
A sea of darkness engulfs our hearts,
once in a while we find another to share it with
another who leads us towards the light,
giving us the hope we want to go on... to live...
but really might just be leading us into the pit
It's hard to tell...
One day i hope, I pray, to whoever or whatever
rules the heavens and seldom nudges our fates,
that they send me some creature, angel or devil,
that will lead me into the light.
I hope, I beg, that this entity will love me enough
to bring me home again, be my home again.
But in my final fleeting moments of thought
just before sleep I ponder:
"I love the romantic idea, the joy that this could bring,
but is it worth it? Am I worth it?
It's just too hard to tell"
well kiddies, this has been quite the treat, a blast from the past making a scene again, and a bitter heart trying to heal... XD jeez I'm dismal... Anywho, I hope someone enjoyed it, comment if you approve ;3
