The water hit the rocks in such a violent form. Crushing and hitting; sloshing and smashing, spraying the brisk ocean breeze up towards me. My white gown flowed with the violent wind, my hair flying off to the side. My cheeks stained with a mix of tears and mascara; my eyes red and puffy. I could feel my heart beating so fast. In my hands were clutched loose papers from my journal, my diary, my life. My world had crashed down and I didn’t know which way to turn, which way to go. The path was so blurry; I didn’t know what to follow. It was like a thick fog that hazed my vision, making it impossible to know which way to go. I was clutching to the thin lines of my sanity, watching before me as it started to mutate into something so scary. I felt all alone in this world called Earth and the only thing to take the pain away… the only thing that made sense to end it all. Jump.
My eyes darted all over from the waves to the rocks to the intense flow of the tide. It was all so intriguing. I wanted to jump and be one with the waves and rocks until it devoured my body and took all my pain away until all was left was the painless body to resurface. It never sounded so sweet until now. As I listened to the beautiful sound of the thrashing waves, I watched my entire life flash before me. So meaningless, so insignificant, so depressing. Nothing else would ever fix it.
Lifting my arm, I released the loose papers and watched them fall so slowly like little feathers into the water. As they danced upon the surface, I watched the water engulf into them before the tide picked up and devoured them completely. It was like they never existed anymore. The haunting words, forever forgotten and my piece of mind forever shattered. More tears welled up in my eyes and they didn’t hesitate to drip down my cheeks, mixing with the thick goop of mascara that coated my eyelashes. So damp, so painful, so dreary. Taking a step towards the edge more, I raised my arms, basking in the free night air once more before it would all end and I could claim salvation and rest.
Nothing was like how it was supposed to be anymore. I couldn’t tell left from right, wrong from right, up and down. It was all chaos in my mind in my body, in my spirit and soul and in my life. I needed it to end. I needed—nae--yearned for the quiet. I wanted nothing more than for the quiet to envelope into me and set me free from this painful life and world. I needed to be free. So set me free.
I started to tilt forward to take that final leap, leaving my physical life behind. My eyes closed, my arms remained up in the air and the last thing I heard was a scream. It was like a scream clutching onto my irrelevant life, pulling me back, making me thrash. I had lost it. There was no going back. I was gone, forever.
They found me.
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