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A topic came to my mind a while back, and I've been thinking about it lately.

A few people (not neccessarily people I know, just people I've seen around the forums and got into discussions with) have wondered if I was a moderator before. They swear they've seen my name in green before. At first it was a shock, but then I quickly realized who they were referring to (Dri), pointed it out, and all "Ah, ok"'s were had by all.

But it got me thinking.

I've been questing, in a sense, for mod-ship for about a year now. At least, being generally helpful and reporting stuff and helping in the Q&A forum and such. By the way I act, people have gotten me confused with a former-mod-now-admin user. Whether it's because of the similarities in names, the way we're generally respectful and helpful towards others, or because of a combination of both eludes me.

It got me thinking is what the point is. Is there a chance of mod-ship in my future? Or, rather since it'll likely happen first, helpership? Am I that respectful towards others? Am I close to the point of being it, but missing the ingredient X in the recipe?

Thinking, thinking, thinking...

Lyrics for all. I was going to post them a while back, but short attention spans tend to prevent that at times.

Artist: She Wants Revenge
Song: Tear You Apart

Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
And the whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind

Late night, and passing, mention it flipped her
Best friend, who knows saying maybe it slipped
But the slip turns to terror and a crush to light
When she walked in, he throws up, believe its the fright

Its cute in a way, til you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weak
An escape is just a nod and a casual wave
Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fscking tear you apart

Then he walked up and told her, thinking that he'd passed
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way he wanted her and this was bad
He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fscking tear you apart