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Dear Gaian Folk,
I just don't know where to go with this.
I mean, I just started OLL. (Online learning) two days ago, and it's already a lot to juggle. On top of that, Rex is getting so big, and I have to actually move around with her more and more.
It's getting to be too much, and I honestly can't stay on Gaia that long.
Honestly, before, Gaia had seriously seemed like an addiction.
While I was in my last few months of pregnancy with Rex, I was on bedrest, and I wasn't allowed to really do anything other than lay on my side. Can you believe it, I wasn't even allowed to get up unless it was to take a shower, or eat a little. And the entire time, I couldn't stop thinking about Gaia. (Now, you KNOW it's an addiction if your thoughts are of Gaia rather than your own child.)
Speaking of bedrest, I was even more upset afterwards, when I read in an article that half the time bedrest does ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! I mean, it doesn't help anything, and it doesn't worsen anything. Basically, my couple of months laying on my side didn't help me at all, and was completely pointless.
Anyway, in that time, I could not stop thinking about Gaia, and as soon as my daughter was born, and as soon as I took her home, I took pictures, and said to my mom "They are for Gaia". That's how obsessed I was. Gaia was taking over my life, and now I'm WAY too busy for Gaia.
Online classes, believe it or not, are WAY harder than being in a classroom, and it's taking up a ton of my time.
I can't keep up with Gaia anymore. I'm so busy with school and with Rex. She's getting huge. Literally. And I'm always running around back and forth doing things with her.
I might just leave Gaia altogether. It's an addiction, and I hate being addicted.
Besides, I won't feel so obligated to be online as much.
I guess this is a temporary goodbye?
At least, until I decide what to do completely.
- Lori.
 R a a w i y a · Thu Sep 09, 2010 @ 09:13pm · 0 Comments |
