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Well... Right now... I am watching South Park... I'm not very interested in it right now... My mind is on other things! exclaim But what? question
My mom asked me if I was depressed the other day. Of course I said NO! stressed I'm an idiot.... I should have just said yes! Because I am! I ALWAYS AM! I'm sad all the time exclaim Nothing matters to me anymore... I don't care. I think everyone hates me. I might hate them too. You never know! I'm always alone ya! My sister and her boy friend...THEY ******** FOOL AROUND IN FRONT OF ME! I hate it! I'm jealous! It makes me sick also! I hate them.... I hate them both... My friend even has a boyfriend. I'm not allowed to till I'm 16 like my sister. But she's an idiot! She....She gets too attached...She just forget about everything but him! B;ah blah boyfriend this...blah blah...... MAKE HER SHUT HER LITTLE BITCHY MOUTH! Saying she never gets to see him... Yeah ******** right! SHE SEES HIM EVERY ******** DAY AND SPENDS ALL HER TIME WITH HIM! I remember when she was my friend and I spent time with her. Now...I've been pushed aside like....LIKE SOME OLD BROKEN TOY! She treats me like s**t now... Seriously.... Pushing me around...Calling me names... I can't stand it... I wish to scream at her... Hurt her... I shouldn't say that... But she's been doing that to me for a while now...