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Nothing interesting happened today.

I felt sad. Felt like I was a joke, that people were laughing at me, that I was pathetic. Felt defeated and downtrodden. Missed my iPod which bricked itself yesterday. Felt helpless as I argued with someone online about the pros an cons of iPods vs minidisk players. Got frustrated. Felt awkward as someone else chewed him out for making a similar comment to someone else, because while I didn't want to alienate him, I kind of saw where she was coming from. Felt like I was being toyed with when I talked to someone I used to RP with all the time. It's pretty obvious she doesn't want to play anymore and that she's struggling to find a way to let me down gently, but I know better than to call her on it because she'll tell me that isn't what she is trying to do at all so that she can spare my feelings. Felt that if I had tried to be a bit more of an a*****e and a bit less of a nice guy that the problem never would have come up in the first place, and I certainly never would have been in this position. Felt frustrated with my dad when he mentioned selling the dog because she caused trouble. Worried a bit that he's been becoming increasingly agitated the past few days. Lost hope that I'd be able to find a good job. Felt lonely because my real life friends are so far away now that they aren't really 'real life friends' anymore.