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I'm tired of being the nice guy and listening to the problems of everyone else. I'm tired of spending countless nights listening to someone rant and rave to me about the guy that they like, and those terrible things that happened in their life, only to not have the time to listen to me when I have something to rant about. I'm tired of being the punching bag for everyone around me when they need to just vent everything, but not having anyone around who is willing to be the outlet for me when I need to unload all of my problems.

I'm tired of having people vent to me about their shitty stupid problems.

I'm tired of being ignored when I try to vent to people about mine.

I'm tired of being that nice guy who cares and understands.

******** it. Seriously.

I'm tired of caring about people and being nice to the people around me. I'm tired of getting emotionally involved in people who I care more about than I am cared about by. I'm tired of trying to get close to self-destructive people who are going to get into relationships where bad things happen, with bad people and then fight tooth and nail for a relationship that is dead.

It is frustrating as ******** to be the shoulder that people cry on while not having a shoulder to cry on myself.

It is annoying as all hell to be that one guy who will understand if everyone else gets a post but he doesn't.

It is a pain in the a** to have to fight tooth and nail for everything that I get and still get so very little in comparison to what I'm prepared to give out.

The golden rule is bullshit.

I understand how the guy who wrote "I'm a believer" felt when he said 'the more I gave the less I got'.

I have decided, with this, that I am going to be an aloof, emotionally distant, badass. The kind of guy with skin of steel and an empty shell where his heart is.

Hollywood has tried to sell us all on the idea that nice guys win out in the end, but it's a lie. The only thing being a nice guy ever gets anyone is pain and frustration. Girls really want a guy who is empty inside, the kind of guy who is cold.

In the end, the wizard was right.

Tin-Man was much better without a heart.