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Please...
I ask you
Please tell me...

' The wrost feeling isnt dieing. It's the feeling when you arent need '
Is this what happening me?
I don't want to be fall apart
I want to be close by

I want to go back
I want that spot again
' _______, Come onnnnnn! Smile! '
I miss saying these supporting words
I miss being there when i was needed

But I know it wasnt anyone's fault
It was my own...
I was scared
I didnt want to make a fool of
I didnt want this to happen
But...I know...and I can see what happen

So, Hear me out!
This girl, this one
Isnt going to back down
She'll do like what she said
' This is where I'm going to stand stronger than ever. '

Why am I doing this?
Becuase the people i love and care
Falling away....
I'm....not able to see those smiles i love as much

' I'll always support you! NO MATTER WHAT! '
' Hey a promise is a promise '
' From now and forever! B.F.F.L! '
' You can't give up! '
' I really admire you. You always work so hard. If it wasnt for you i wouldnt be here now. '
' It's TRUE! Whenever I'm with you I smile'

I want to say these words again.....
I want to do the things i did before....
I want to keep going....

' Jenny, I don't know why, but whenever I talk to you.....I always feel a lot better'
' You are a good listener Jenny'
' OMG! Jenny you know so much about me! '

These words.....
From years before
I never got to hear these
When i heard them....
I couldnt help but smile
I kept them in my heart
And let my heart take in the warmth i feel.

I felt like, i.....was in heaven....

This is why.....I know the emotions i feel now.....
I want them to change back...
and become who i was really was....
" I love you guys. and I know i should had said a whole lot more...."