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I have two personalities: a wise, thoughtful, and sophisticated personality that can be used to answer questions many have ponder for many a day.

I also have a personality of pure, sweet, blissfull jack-assery, somewhat in a stoner sensation that would laugh at the word...mayonaise.

Today was one of....wisdom.

Sometimes, I get into deep conversations with myself. Not actually talking, but, you know, thinking to yourself. Like,"Well, what if (so on)..." "Well then..." and so on. Some of the topics I get into usually go deep, either to and through the boundries of space-time and what they would allow on such a subject of such little knowledge, and some I just keep thinking about after I missed the exit of discussion about 3 miles back.

One topic I was thinking about the other day was life and it's courses. Obviously life is what we make of it. But what about what we don't? How do the actions that we do affect us? If we did something else, the outcome would be different. Naturally. But how much to the extreme would it be different. Would I be totally indistinguishable if I were to place myself of now next to the myself of what would? Would the difference be slight? It's these things that get me thinking, especially around events in my life.

For instance, I moved about 8 years ago when I was 8. I devastated me, because I was stupid and didn't think to get phone numbers and e-mails and such, and as a result I would loose all my friends. How would I be different had I not moved? All the people that taught me about RP's, RPG's, and D&D and all that makes me a nerd I met where I live now. Would I be less of a nerd? Would I even know of Gaia? These questions eventually lead up to more. How different would I influence peoples' lives? How would that affect others'?

These questions lie deep in my pondering mind.

Another topic I discuss with myself regarding life. How does it work? Are we predestined for what we will become when we die? Is there set outcomes of what we can become based on life altering events? I believe the latter over the first. But how do other people view life?

And such are the ponderings of me.